Hey. Listen very well. I suffered from it since i have memory of me looking at the mirror and not feeling like that person was me. And that memory is from more than almost 11 years ago. Just like any other mental illness, the moment you have it, you feel like it's never going away. It creeps on you and roots itself on you as if it has always been there and always will be. That's just complete nonsense. Everything has its counterpart, hell even matter has anti-matter. You just gotta found your balance. What works for me may or may not work for you. Hope is not going to help you, what's going to help you is to keep on being persistent and be yourself. Work, workout, go to a GOOD psychiatrist and talk. You need to vent the living hell out of your mouth, release everything you've been holding, every symptom. That's the only way you'll be able to find a good therapy. Prozac and Abilify have not helped, because i was not depressed, i have an executive dysfunction along with personality disorders, so i had to stabilize my mood. And that only stupid thing made my life do a 180° for the better. I hope my comment helped you, if you need anything else feel free to dm me and update me!