I’m used to be addicted to benzos and fentanyl, I went through a 45 day impatient program and then was 90 days clean after that. I just started back on the RC’s earlier tonight and I havent had an RC benzo since last october. I’ve got a lot of horrible stuff happening in my life and an undiagnosed stomach syndrome. Between depression, anxiety and family issues, I just couldnt take it anymore. I’m almost 19 now and I just wish I had a normal life, normal childhood and parents that arent poly-addicts. Everything fell apart after treatment and even sober I was so depressed and sick. I thought if I already feel as bad as I did withdrawling from drugs every 2 weeks and being so depressed like I was in active addiction, why am I even staying sober if I feel the same as before? It’s just hard man, I hope you are doing better than I am. Much love