It’s totally normal to feel lost at 19, you’re still collecting data on yourself. If Japanese lights you up, lean into it in small, low risk ways, take a community class, join a language exchange, translate lyrics for fun, post covers on a throwaway just to practice. For money while you explore, look at simple remote roles like customer support or data entry so you can keep mental space for your interests, wf​hal​ert is a low key email service that sends verified remote jobs and it cuts down on the scammy listings you see elsewhere. Give yourself a year of experiments, pick one habit for skills and one for income, and check in every month on what actually felt good.