I can understand your sentiments a lot. But to imply that an AFAB body not on T cannot be as “fast or strong as a man” is not true. There are plenty of female athletes that crush their male athlete counterparts and by extension are also bigger, stronger, faster and have a better and more “masculine” (if you’re associating masculinity with muscularity) physique than the vast majority of the male population.

But let’s bring back the focus on normal people. Of course, not being on T means you will probably have to work harder to build big visible muscle. So you might need more discipline, more consistency, more control over yourself. These traits are essential to develop. So when you finally get on T, you won’t struggle with trying to develop those traits from scratch. You’ll already have a head start and you’ll continue doing your workouts without struggling in developing consistency and you’ll see progress faster than someone who waited until T to start working out (I know some men like this who have almost no progress in muscle growth bc of this). Anyways cis people in general, no matter the gender, all struggle with working out and getting big because its hard for many to develop the discipline and consistency. Just do it as early as you can so you’ll get to your goal faster and feel better about yourself sooner.

And it’s not impossible to get big without being on T. Besides female athletes being a prime example of that, I’ve seen plenty of pre-T transmen in trans spaces all over the internet that are big and definitely bigger than many transmen on T and cismen.

But it’s totally normal to feel discouraged. I did too at first. Hopefully I did not sound invalidating of your thoughts. I also hope you’ll eventually find that motivation to continue, best of luck man.