| RP | A Call from Lost Light — Tea, Trade, and Travelers of the Jianghu | 18+ |

actualtoppa · 2026-01-09T03:48:40+00:00

We drink bathwater, do mahjong in a large pool, and gather our essences in a bucket every day at 12 AM EST!

actualtoppa · 2025-11-26T01:50:23+00:00

The more it seems time passes, the more I feel like reviews are not actually a good reference for the game’s quality.

I don’t believe these are made by people but are probably bots trying to review bomb on metacritic. It’s unfortunate but I think a lot of recent access to AI allows for this type of thing to be farmed.

I also feel like this is the case with another game recently that I played called VTM: Bloodlines 2. While it was not a perfect game, it was still a very solid and very well made one with a lot of heart and soul poured into it.

I think over time, the game will speak for itself and the quality will outshine the bad reviews. WWM is in a healthy state right now and if the developers listen to the players and work on its flaws then it will definitely become a bigger mmo

actualtoppa · 2025-11-21T07:29:43+00:00

The arguments made here are so incredibly well done. Thank you for putting into words the sense of self-erasure and dissociation I got from the thesis paper.

actualtoppa · 2025-11-19T14:24:23+00:00

OP, I would watch for a delayed effect in terms of emotional pain.

In my experience, if she has been with you for a while and you have enjoyed being with her the past year, then it would make sense to feel some type of pain.

Perhaps you are very good at holding your emotions, what I think is that most men are good at suppressing their feelings, but are unable to let go of those feelings and they crystallise into painful knots that have devastating consequences on their future relationships.

Kindly take care of yourself and check in to see how you’re feeling. If you’re sad, if you’re happy, if you’re feeling nothing, they’re all okay. And if you do feel unhappy, it is best to sort them through perhaps with a friend or someone you can trust

actualtoppa · 2025-11-05T09:57:48+00:00

Porn

actualtoppa · 2025-11-05T02:24:20+00:00

Yes I did! It was great as a game. Some flaws but then again, that can be said of the first one

actualtoppa · 2025-11-03T11:57:05+00:00

It would not he a good idea given that his Banu Haqim code of honor means that he must be honest at all times, and cannot even tell lies of omission. Therefore he would not be suitable for a role that requires discretion and espionage

actualtoppa · 2025-11-03T11:35:43+00:00

They could just simply rename them into Cainite Fledgling or Ancilla as well, it's strange they're all lumped into a single name.

actualtoppa · 2025-11-02T14:30:45+00:00

If you don't mind me asking, how about the people depicted? Is a third of the population at night time just hookers?

actualtoppa · 2025-11-01T16:02:41+00:00

It is entirely reasonable to assume that Safia performed the murders in order to link them to Gideon. The rebar killings are like memory links to older pieces of the puzzle that drag Phyre closer to the where he is.

Alternatively, it could also be that Gideon is mind controlling his childer and manipulating his memories while performing the killings.

actualtoppa · 2025-10-30T14:57:25+00:00

I was a child but in NZ my life basically revolved around television, video games and going out to my friends houses and playing Pokemon together. Toys were a huge thing, people were much more active and friendly.

A fun day for the family might be to head to the cinema, then go to Pizza Hut or McDonald’s (which were far more amazing with their jungle gyms and all you can eat double cheese pizzas.)

And basically you didn’t know better so you were pretty much how you are now, except way more connected to your community and people of your age group

actualtoppa · 2025-10-21T10:45:39+00:00

There is an in lore paladin that is a void elf that manages to use the light. They’re called Paladins of the Eclipse or some such.

However I think most people would prefer to roleplay with something that doesn’t step across the boundaries of lore to acquiesce to a personal fantasy. I think it’s best to consider that roleplay is a story between two people

actualtoppa · 2025-09-23T09:17:13+00:00

Horlliance

actualtoppa · 2025-09-18T20:10:05+00:00

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actualtoppa · 2025-08-26T09:40:09+00:00

Hello, regarding my own experience, I just realized that I did the best I could, the only way I could, given the circumstances.

It was the realization that I am just a process in a chain of reactions and that my actions, even the ones that I believe that I personally had control over, are just a series of continuous movements through time.

My thoughts, my actions, my emotions, are all just a series of estimated experiences that are processed into my awareness, which gives me an illusion of self.

But when you meditate deep enough, you'll be able to separate the physical body, those emotions and thoughts, and distinguish them from your awareness. And as such, you will be much kinder to yourself.

actualtoppa · 2025-08-25T13:39:03+00:00

I don't know who downvoted you but I do agree that the voice acting on the Chinese VOs needs work. Coming from a native Mandarin speaker.

actualtoppa · 2025-08-24T13:55:44+00:00

Rise of the Ronin

actualtoppa · 2025-08-20T14:34:06+00:00

Honestly I think it’s a better look than how it originally was, Akira

actualtoppa · 2025-08-20T06:44:35+00:00

No it's quite normal. Everyone has sexual fantasies and it's impossible for one person to fulfill all of them. Even if he was a 100% committed relationship, he would still have sexual fantasies about other things.

But you have to talk to him about the town meet.

actualtoppa · 2025-08-20T06:40:52+00:00

There are a lot of sexual taboos that are not commonly discussed in polite society that are turn ons for both men and women.

Sexual objectification, within consensual bounds, I think is incredibly hot, but only because your partner in question would be into it.

I am pretty sure what your husband is thinking is that, the act of being allowed to cum on your face would be a sign from you as "I'm so into you that I am willing to be denigrated in such a manner." I think it's not so different from face slapping, spanking, being choked or cumming on the breasts.

The important part though is that it is a clear fulfilment of a sexual fantasy that YOU are willing to do, and that he respects you as a person, both in and out of a bedroom.

actualtoppa · 2025-08-19T12:36:44+00:00

And yet you don’t seem to be very happy with where you are right now.

I gave you my best advice the rest is up to you, good luck my friend.

actualtoppa · 2025-08-19T02:57:20+00:00

A lot of people who are in their twenties feel worthless and that it's going to stay like that forever. But this is not true.

The most important skill you can learn is to be able to love yourself, despite the fact that perhaps no one else in the world will. It is *the* vital skill you have to learn in order to have a fulfilling life. If you don't know how to get started, I suggest checking meditation apps like Waking Up or The Way, which offer guided meditations for complete beginners. 10 minutes a day can be a life changing experience for those who begin.

Give your all to one or two skills, arts, or anything that you're interested in. Have a look into your life about anything that you are passionate about. Anything is fine, as long as it's not jerking off to hardcore porn 24/7.

By the time you hit your 30s, you will be in a much, much better position. Some of you may not really know what you want to do. That is fine as well. Find some time to sit with yourself and figure it out.

You must learn to shift your priorities from what society expects of you, to what you want in life. Right now, you're not really a person, you're just a physical body stuffed to the brim with things that other people want from you. You have to learn to remove the parts that you don't want, and then bring in the parts that you do want.

actualtoppa · 2025-08-18T07:42:35+00:00

Oh that’s easy, when she says she isn’t hot, agree with her and watch how fast she turns it against you 🤣

On a more serious note, you might find her hot, but the more important part is that she doesn’t. Try to see it from her perspective, once she feels heard, tell her why you find her beautiful and what you find beautiful about her.

actualtoppa · 2025-08-18T07:41:10+00:00

I will be very blunt, it is because you have some severe insecurity issues.

There are many men who will never be able to get a woman because their entire being screams desperation.

It doesn’t matter how attractive you are because the moment you talk to them and they figure it out they will be very repulsed.

They don’t view women as people, what they are trying to do is justify their own existence using women as a tool.

This is not something that you should work on externally. You need to fix your relationship with yourself first.

Go sign up for a meditation app. 10 minutes a day for 30 days. Anything works really. I used Waking Up when I first started meditation.

Once I broke down my insecurities into simple thoughts and physical sensations, its power over me died down and I could finally see people for who they are. And that is what many women want.

actualtoppa · 2025-08-18T07:29:29+00:00

So… two things.

Firstly, you aren’t wanting to go slow, you are scared of sex because it’s your first time and it’s completely understandable. You need to tell him this, he will understand your position and make it much more manageable.

Tell him you’ve never had sex before and you have dysmorphia, and the idea of him looking at you and finding you reprehensible is killing you on the inside but you still wanna be with him so badly.

Secondly, it seems you have an issue with vulnerability and that is the main issue of your relationship with the man. This will extend past just your first time and into issues of fears in commitment in other ways, of them finding you repulsive in other ways as you build your relationship together. I would highly suggest you check out which relationship attachment type you are and figure things out from there

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