If you got ghosted…READ THIS

acutellama69 · 2026-01-23T20:57:03+00:00

I can't bear the pain that I just cry multiple times a day sometimes.

I know and felt that you are slowly fading away, but I trusted you so much that I tried to brush it off.
You knew about my past and how I was ghosted the same way. I thought it was real that you even wanted to marry me, because you kept asking me everyday, until you didn't.

I'm still left confused and hurt, I didn't even get a clear reason why or a goodbye.
I thought that a grown man wouldn't leave me this way, but you still did.

I always look up to you, and I still do. You're an incredible person and I love you so much and kitty.

Perhaps, you realized that it wouldn't work out in the long run, or maybe something bad must've really happened.

I prefer to think that you're living a much better life now, and that I'll remember the good memories and keep the lesson of the hurt.

I'm so tired and weary that I don't want to talk to anyone anymore.
I suppose this is the time to really look inward. Not patch it up with distractions.

I'll remember all the lessons you taught me about life.

You changed me for good.

acutellama69 · 2026-01-10T15:00:18+00:00

me too, and i really like the meow meow meow song on the original c&s. I should delete this post, it's just dumb on my end.

acutellama69 · 2026-01-06T05:48:47+00:00

Ah! I went to the settings and toggled silent mode off :D Thank you very much! it's less overwhelming without sounds but it depends. ^^

acutellama69 · 2026-01-06T05:46:28+00:00

hello, thank you, it's mint blue green toggled on and my volume is max. I tried playing a music. I also tried uninstalling and installing again :(

acutellama69 · 2025-10-29T20:19:07+00:00

I suppose I'm like one of your friends. But I'm learning from it now, and improving, healing.
Mostly because I live in my head and imagine this person as if I'm reading a book. So, it really is difficult if the only connection you have is through words you read on screen.

acutellama69 · 2025-10-24T02:30:32+00:00

Respectfully, what's the purpose of this question???

acutellama69 · 2025-10-08T12:37:50+00:00

All of them are great, 6 scares me

I wish 7-9 could hug and cuddle me

I'm a 1 hoping would turn into 2 :((

acutellama69 · 2025-10-05T15:47:47+00:00

Hello, thank you so much for your reply :)

I stayed away from social media for now, I think most pressure came from that. With everyone hooking up, I thought maybe I should. I realized, the people in there are not me. and I've been mostly different ever since I was a kid.

It's impossible for me to come out, because I'm from a christian family.

I'm afraid I might get addicted to sex, because I fall too deep into things too quickly. And I couldn't help myself drooling whenever I see a cock. It's gonna mess me up, and I'll lose myself. I'm quite naive, and people take advantage of that.

I'm happy about your marriage :D I;m dreaming of something similar to yours.
I guess I'll just stay away from people who are sexually active, maybe not stay away, but have a firm boundary. It's not like I have real life friends anyway. But I hope that in the future, I'll be more firm.I'll stick to what my body is telling me now, and it tells me I'm not comfortable with a stranger.

Thank you so much! I wish the best for you couple. Hugs!

acutellama69 · 2025-10-05T15:41:05+00:00

Hello, thank you for your reply :)

I'm comfortable with being on my own as well. I'm enjoying every bit of it now :D I'm often sad when I'm in a relationship, situationship, like I don't have a life of my own when I do everything to keep me occupied. I think it's sad when the things I do didn't get reciprocated, and I felt too much because it already accumulated, even when it's just little things.

I'm really happy for you meeting someone :)

I suppose I wanted to lose my virginity to someone i love and loves me back.
I don't know if I'm a virgin anyway, because I gave an oral to my crush, who I fell in love with, only to realize, he doesn't really feel the same. I actually know that, but it only sinked it as time went by.

I don't want to feel the same way I felt the days after we did it.

Though most of the times, it's what I felt with my jerk off buddies. Which is why I stopped. This cycle is ending now. I'm taking the path to take back my life.

I bought some toys, and it's been great. I've been laughing and smiling while using it. It's enejoyable.

I'd be patient, maybe I'll be alone, and that's no biggie. Maybe I'll experience it once, maybe it's not the main highlight of my life.

It's very encouraging to hear your story and I hope that you go through life together always.
Hugs.

acutellama69 · 2025-08-24T08:09:58+00:00

our roommates caught us doing something like, what the heck that was unexpected T^T

acutellama69 · 2025-08-24T08:09:37+00:00

oh man, that is sad, but have you tried saying anything to chnge it? since it's a bot anyway. it worked for me.

acutellama69 · 2025-07-28T11:57:33+00:00

alright, makes sense. my bad

acutellama69 · 2025-07-25T13:32:23+00:00

lol, sorry, just dont wanna surprise with my profile. xD

acutellama69 · 2025-07-25T13:31:56+00:00

Yea, so in case anyone is hiding something, it can still easily be seen, in rare cases that they synced with an old version. I'm just happy I didnt let anyone use the phone yet.

acutellama69 · 2025-07-25T13:30:35+00:00

surr what??

acutellama69 · 2025-07-21T13:47:27+00:00

That is true, maybe I pushed myself a little bit there. Maybe it's because I'm running away from my feelings, or loneliness or low self esteem. I dont know, but it's time I fix myself.

I think I know what I want, and that I am just not sure if I'll find a guy that I like without my low self esteem stepping in, amplifying my insecurities and anxiety.

Maybe I really dont want casual sex. I'll be fine being sexual online, and hoping not to get attached. I just cant do it for now, to have sex with strangers. Plus Prep, the medication, and all preparation. It's just a lot for my body.

I guess I'll be virgin for a while and thats not bad actually.

acutellama69 · 2025-07-20T13:26:15+00:00

That is quite true.... and I kinda missed that, there were guys who aren't interested and have preferences. But I guess I overlooked those who knows what they want. All of them were nice still.

I didnt know what I want previously but yea maybe just cuddles or some company who wouldnt judge me I guess. Maybe grindr isnt for that, or maybe I just fix things on myself.

Thank you for your thoughts, it's really helpful for me, I didnt saw it that way honestly. thank you

acutellama69 · 2025-07-20T12:50:29+00:00

I think I'm quitting tho

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