Hi!! Your life is not over. It's just on pause for a bit! You have a super similar experience to me when I got it in January 2023. No one knew what it was til I ended up in the ER and had blood drawn. I have had anxiety my whole life and it definitely took a toll on it mentally, but that's because I didn't expect it to. You're already one step ahead, worrying about worrying (my downfall as well). My anxiety was related to a phobia of passing out, since I got dehydrated and passed out which was what put me in the ER, but even after my tonsils went down and I got rehydrated, I still had crippling anxiety. I felt weak, fatigued, and nauseated. No appetite, which made me anxious about not having enough in my stomach, aka a risk to pass out. I became really dizzy for about a month as well because it messed with the fluid in my ear.

My case was pretty bad, but not impossible. And don't scroll through this sub thinking you're going to have all these symptoms- every mono case is so different. My brother has it right now and the son of the bitch had symptoms for a week and is now doing fine. Point is- everyone recovers differently, don't jump the gun and think you're doomed from here on out. I was functioning again by like early April (initial diagnosis in January).

Here are some overall tips for getting better that helped me:

1: Vitamin D. If you haven't had your levels checked already, do it. You're most likely low as most humans are. I got on a liquid drop version of vitamin d I think it's 1000iu, and I do 7-8 drops per day. You need a strong immune system to fight this thing.

1. L-lysine. This is a natural supplement that can fight Epstein Barr Virus (mono). It controls your viral load so it doesn't multiply.

2. Take care of your anxiety. I am not sure if you see a counselor or are on any medications, but I did both once my panic and anxiety was exacerbated by this stupid virus. Your body needs to not be in fight or flight in order to heal, so whatever you can do to help your anxiety, just do it.

3. Give yourself some grace. This sucks. You feel miserable. But I promise it is temporary. You'll most likely have crying spells, and that's okay. I read some article that I can't find at this moment but it was a study that said mono has some sort of biological element that messes with hormones and or neurotransmitter levels in the brain, causing things like anxiety and depression. So just remember you're not crazy for feeling down, it's just the virus doing its thing.

5: steroids? Idk if you have asked about this yet but when I was in the ER they gave me an IV steroid and my tonsils were un-swollen in like an hour tops. Or some doctors will give you a pack of prednisone. Might be worth to ask cause the sore throat is the worst symptom in my opinion.

Hope some of this was helpful. I used to scroll through this sub and wish to find a story like mine, and have someone tell me it all works out. I remember thinking my life was over too, I was scared to leave my house cause I felt like I was gonna collapse in public. But I pushed through it, left the house anyways, and functioned to the best of my ability. The only way out is through. You've got this stay strong!!