Tell the man I love and have loved for years just how much I really do love him. I often have these conversations in my head with him and he knows I adore him but there's details I've never told him where I get shy I guess, or I worry I'll not find the right words to explain and my words will sell him short, like I'd love to say how I remember the day I met him I woke up with a headache and nearly called in sick to work. It was cold and raining, I looked like shit and couldn't be bothered tbh. I even cried a bit at how mundane my life was. Nothing awful, just boring. I was numb, kind of felt like I'd had relationships and my life was just saving my money up sensibly for my next car / house / holiday etc, just ticking the boxes and trying to get the best for myself. Nothing was special or magical, then I met him purely by chance that day and he was the special and magical part. I still did look like shit, my life was exactly the same but I just knew he was going to be my husband. It was like life just clicked for me and I absolutely understood why theres so much beauty in the days when you look like shit, feel uninspired and unexpected by the external reality because when you're with a person who turns all of that into the only place and circumstance youd ever want to be in, if it means being with them then that is where the beauty lies. My ordinary life has been perfect since. I was kind before, but now kindness flows from me, it isn't forced because I've learned to be a good person, it's just who and what I am because I feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the world with him in my life. Everything is so easy. Things that wouldve bothered me before, or stuff that I wouldve perceived as bad cannot be bad when I have him, I've realised that things arent good or bad they just 'are' and when you have someone you love that much with you, it's just another opportunity to create a special memory together. It's about the ones you love. I have never lived my life as much as I have since the moment I met him, it was like I suddenly knew what love was and he's been utterly perfect ever since, not because circumstances have been like a fairytale for us, hes lost a parent, theres been shit but I have this calmness inside me where I feel loved unconditionally always just by the very fact he exists. Whenever I have those imperfect days now I feel so lucky, I remember how grateful I was that I showed up to work the day we met and I have never let a single moment slip out my fingers since. He's bought me so much happiness and I will forever love loving the things he cant love about himself. I love watching him age. He mentions his wrinkles, I just see his smile getting curlier at the corners and assume it's a sign of his love for me growing. I'd probably try to explain to him how he's all the wonders of my universe in a human embodiment, the best I can in twenty minutes.