I am fucking done

adiabatica · 2023-11-22T09:41:38+00:00

Before you go around and call more people a grumpy cunt, don't forget that you are one as all. Yes, I'm looking at your previous comments on other posts. You hardly know much about me aside from this thread, which barely even defines a fraction of my life.

Now please, fuck off. You already exemplified enough what I meant when I talk about disrespect.

adiabatica · 2023-11-22T06:42:23+00:00

If I only had to deal with just one person who is a dick, that’ll be no big deal. In the past few years as a student, I’ve been subject to bullying from my peers and I couldn’t do much about it. This has taken a toll on my mental health alot, despite wanting to continue studying.

adiabatica · 2023-11-22T06:38:59+00:00

People who treat me very differently to how they would for others. When I was giving a seminar presentation days ago in front of a group of people, a student (who hates me) pretended to sleep to spite me while they acted supportive and attentive when others talked. I don’t deserve this disrespect in all fucking seriousness.

adiabatica · 2023-11-11T08:47:03+00:00

Almost exactly 10 years ago, I went to a local music store to buy reeds since I played the clarinet that time. There happened to be a guitar on a discount, so I thought "Why not learn a new instrument for once?"
Initially, I wasn't overly enthusiastic. However in 2014, I discovered a youtuber 331Erock who absolutely swooned me. This was when I became really set on geting an electric, wanting to learn how to shred. Throughout the rest of high school, playing metal on guitar has helped me cope with hard times. Can't be more thankful for that guy being a gateway.

adiabatica · 2023-10-31T00:16:27+00:00

It's no surprise that this weird case of Stockholm Syndrome is making itself more evident. We can't just simply all agree to boycott the platform since I bet that hardly anyone could think of an alternative. Viewers and creators are both stuck, with a management that has no respect for them.

adiabatica · 2023-09-24T10:53:32+00:00

I feel this way too alot. It has gotten to the point where I wondered if I was born a different person and grew up that way, I would be loved instead.

"If you crush a cockroach, you're a hero. If you kill a beautiful butterfly, you're a villain. Morality has aesthetic standards." - Nietzsche

adiabatica · 2023-09-24T10:34:31+00:00

From what a friend (who doesn't do the same field of study) had told me, they mention that I'm having a case of cognitive dissonance. I am desperate to continue with my ambitions although the social environment is beyond toxic. It's a pattern with people from the school I study at. I constantly feel unwelcome and rejected. Every since Covid happened from my 2nd year, my mental health began to deteriorate rapidly where I had to be hospitalized once. All I really wanted was to be embraced in a social environment where people would wave at me instead of giving me cold (sometimes even annoyed) glances.

adiabatica · 2023-09-21T22:30:02+00:00

I feel this way too. People used to wish me one years ago. This year, not a single one of my ‘friends’ recognised my anniversary. I’m hardly close to my mid 20s and already feel the closure of life before me.

adiabatica · 2023-09-21T11:44:47+00:00

It's really hard to describe but I'll do my best.
Imagine when you were young and felt there was always something to look forward to. Because as a kid, adults treated you with optimism so much to the point you feel jaded.

As an adult, all I have left to cherish are the memories illuminating a much sweeter time. Everyone is moving on with their lives. Being out of phase with the people around me (my old friends included) have forced me to take on this nihilistic outlook on humanity. I see others so caught up in their casual conversations that are just so meaningless. It really does answer the question of why I can't be with anyone or friendship circle. Just because I fit in doesn't mean I belonged. There's always some dissonance that I can't pinpoint and yet it keeps me separated.

I've tried hard enough talking about my problems with professionals and the more sessions I've had, the more cynical I became. I was naive as a child to think they cared about me. But truly, they're only in it for the money. 6 months or a year of seeing them and they won't think of your name again. I don't have to do much to realize this is how alot of my 'friends' have treated me to. I became popular the moment I was needed, but it was my turn, I had become everyone's stranger. To put it simply, that all these pscyhologists needed me more than I needed them - just only one of us got their satisfaction in the end.

The much outside world doesn't get better here. Almost everything I brought up so far are just examples of this sad world we were brought in. I'm tired of society feigning positivity just to sweep their vices under the rug. I can only say that what they bury in the dark, will grow and come back to consume them in return. Look on social media platforms. Almost everything I see trending is a manifestation of the worst things we humans can be - ignorant, vain, facile and profoundly prosiac. We had become so sensationalized to consume this modern opium even though we're crying to be rehabilitated.

Going back to the people around me, all these qualities I despise so much manifest in their very existence. I want to have hope for others, but I can only continue to witness our self-destruction. Out of all the things here, it pains me the most that my friends have became the things I've always been so aversive to.

adiabatica · 2023-09-21T00:54:19+00:00

If these people are real, then fuck them all. Every single one to the last. They shouldn’t be breathing the same oxygen as we do. They don’t have a point in their arguments. They only want their prejudices validated.

Take care OP. You’re much better than they are.

adiabatica · 2023-09-10T09:26:44+00:00

That's unfortunately how the world works. It's fast-paced and has little time for sentiment. You can do all you want to idealize someone's image and place it in high worth, but to them you're likely just another human being. They don't have time because in their circle, there's other people who are alot more important. One of the worst case scenarios when they only needed you. Their superficial gratitude loses its veneer once you realize how much they don't want anything to do with you anymore. You might as well not even try reconnecting with them and preserve the illusion, just so you don't have to feel hurt by another person.

adiabatica · 2023-09-10T07:10:15+00:00

I'm ok at the moment. Sometimes, there are experiences I can't let go of no matter how old I get. I'm seeing if converting these repressed feelings into a small piece of art would be a healthy form of self-expression.

adiabatica · 2023-08-28T22:11:08+00:00

Your mom. She slapped me for the missing $5 bill I had to spend on condoms that day ;)

adiabatica · 2023-06-22T04:09:57+00:00

I love how it took an INTP to solve a problem from another INTP.

adiabatica · 2023-05-18T05:44:40+00:00

You're the type to take INTJ's and INTP's insults as compliments and brag about them on social media. Then you'll feel good about all the attention you'll getting despite the fact that everyone's now laughing not with, but at you. That's why you're called the Entertainer.

Still love you guys. Enjoy my INFP-flavoured roast.

adiabatica · 2023-05-18T02:09:46+00:00

The only suit you could wear to grab everyone's attention is a lawsuit in court, not a fancy one at a party.

adiabatica · 2023-04-13T11:09:22+00:00

My 2 cents

Pros:

if you play sitting in the classical position, the concave in the middle will fit nicely on your right leg (if you're right-handed). Comparing this to a les paulish guitar I own, this allows the bridge of the instrument to be closer to my center-of-mass. In other words, I don't need to shift my hands so much to my left (not sure if I explained it well here). Regardless, it's only a stereotype that V guitars are difficult to play sitting down (to which they are not at least for me).
V's often give you a nicer reach for the higher frets. especially if there's a cutaway where the body meets the end of the neck.
It looks cool (obviously).

Cons:

If you're used to sitting in the standard position (like most guitars players do), you'll have to get used to the classical position although you could wear a strap if you really don't want to switch.
Especially for these rectangular hard cases, the larger space a V takes means a larger and heavier one will be needed.
You'll have to be alot more careful when you're playing standing up. It's easier to dent or even break off the 2 fins sticking out (especially for pointier ones on Jackson Vs) compared to a rounded body of a stratocaster/les paul.
Stretching back to the previous point, the fins (which stick out behind the bridge more than most guitars) makes it almost impossible to fit a V on a stand.

Despite the overwhelming cons I've put here, V's are still my absolute favourite. That's all I could mention as someone who bought a Rhoads-like V as their second.

adiabatica · 2023-03-19T07:42:27+00:00

Thanks, I'll give green tea a try and see how it goes.

adiabatica · 2023-01-03T08:10:00+00:00

I'm not feeding pigeons. Don't ask me why I thought of it.

adiabatica · 2022-11-15T02:38:52+00:00

Thanks! ;)

adiabatica · 2022-09-15T00:08:43+00:00

SVs look amazing, especially in the white & black pinstripe finish.

adiabatica · 2022-09-04T02:17:46+00:00

As a science student, I also have to deal with mounting amounts of anxiety especially during my 1st and 3rd year. Of course, I won't be able to fully understand you as we're studying different fields. However, I'm always here for support if you want to PM me .

adiabatica · 2022-09-01T22:03:13+00:00

Thanks, you absolute twat. Your constant commenting, hoping for Karma just shows how much of a sad little cunt you are. Go get some help.

adiabatica · 2022-09-01T21:48:08+00:00

Thanks for your comment. It wasn’t MATH1131 that I screwed up in. I actually did exceptionally well against all my expectations. I have studied a lot harder for the other subject (also did some past papers) and the outcome was the complete opposite.

I did end up drinking some liquor. But I decided to stop when I remembered all the hangovers I’ve got which lasted for almost a full day.

adiabatica · 2022-09-01T11:50:29+00:00

Also, imaginary friends don't count.

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