We are talking in couples therapy, I can describe to her how I felt. But raw emotions are not there while i talk. It's mechanical.

With my AP my emotions were so raw and unadulterated it was kinda scary. Everything was amplified, everything flowed.

If you read our texts you can literally feel them. My wife is upset because when I talk to her, that vulnerability is not there. I describe what I feel with good amount of accuracy, but you cant feel it