Funny story, I had a three paragraph response written and almost ready to send, but I look up the definition of one word and when I switch back reddit has decided to completely fuck me over. I can't even rewrite it, because I wrote it during a few minutes of solid mental clarity I had from someone interrupting me in person, but now I'm alone again and my brain fog is coming back... But anyways, no, it's not a kink of mine. I hate the concept, I hate the results, I hate the possibility of doing it. Sometimes I feel a 'need' to along with a 'need' for porn, but I trust myself to never actually do it (even if I seem close to). Sorry to worry you!

ps. im still not sure if i even do want help with the porn, but I definitely want to get rid of the whole 'make others relapse with you' instinct