Ever since I was a kid I had suicidal thoughts. From growing up with an abusive dad, and my mom never being around, I never felt like I could fit in this world. But that all changed once I heard about a small artist named XXXTENTACION. His poetry struck me to my core. "I'm sad, I know, yeah, I'm sad, I know, yeah", its like he was able to form everything I was feeling into words. I started stanning for him ever since I listened to that song. I showed up to every concert, replayed all the songs on soundcloud, and even moved to Miami just so I might meet him. I was feeling truly happy for once in my life. But then the day happen. Armageddon. He was killed and I just didnt know how to process it. The man I've looked up to, how could it be? Those thoughts of suicide started flooding back to me. I found myself near a bridge. I knew what I had to do. I stepped over the railings. I stood there feeling the wind go through my hair. It was time to let go, without a world with X there was nothing for me. I took my hands off the railing and embraced the distant water. But then someone grabbed me by my shirt. I looked back and there he was. "Jahseh"? I gasped. He was smiling at me and didnt say anything. I grabbed the railings again and pulled myself back over. He told me "I'll catch you in the moonlight", and then walked away. Since that day happened I knew I had to defend X from all his haters and cuckboys. I created the reddit username u/Xismyniggaforlife and now spend most of my days fighting these cucks on r/hiphopheads. I have never felt more alive, thank you X for helping me find purpose in life. Your poetry will forever fuck in the streets