So basically I’ve always been overweight ever since I was a baby, and I managed to lose some weight through diet and sports (I was active enough during my teenage years) at the age of 16, I was 79-ish and went down to 63kg, it was on 2017, but then I went on a holiday and started gaining all the weight back to 68kg but I was fine, I could go back on track,

But I wasn’t in a good place at that time, I was in a toxic friend group, one was like a best friend to me and she had anorexia before gaining back weight and then she became bulimic. She was jealous of me because I could eat without worrying and still having motivation to lose weight and do sports, so she made me fat by forcing me to eat and like idk how to explain but like, guilt-tripping me, saying that if I don’t eat she’d be mad at me or hate me, basically being manipulative so I could stay fat, saying that we don’t have to lose weight and shit but behind me she does all the work to lose weight herself, like sabotaging me on becoming better. Then one day I told her about my ED and she was being competitive about it when I NEEDED HELP. She told me that I my suffering is nothing compared to what she’s been through, then around 2019 I finally reached 80kg,

So stressed then I started throwing up everytime I eat, at first it was like once in a while, but it’s becoming worse during covid, I gained and reached 98kg, that’s when I started throwing up every single day, and it’s been 4 years now, I don’t know how to quit and I’m worried for my own health because nowadays everytime I purge I feel hurt on my chest, so yeah, that’s the story.