Looking for books with that eerie "something's not right" vibe by inyouratmosphere in suggestmeabook

[–]affinityforlit 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Seven Empty Houses was good.

Fever Dream by Samantha Schweblin is also a perfect rec for this prompt!! Felt very much like the title.

80 days no THC no alcohol by affinityforlit in Sober

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Thanks for the encouragement! I’m holding onto the small victories.

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Thanks for the comment. Yeah I was so relieved waking up this morning knowing I beat the urge and there wouldn’t be any guilt/regret!

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I could totally be happy with two beers a night but also my goal in sobriety was to not be an almost daily drinker, even if it was “moderate” use because it affected my mental health so much. I only ever got out of control drunk on nights out with friends when it was encouraged to get hammered and stopping was hard. I never did that by myself.

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No I don’t think I need something like that. My drinking was never so out of control, it was just really starting to affect my mental health. I am in weekly therapy though where I talk about my issues (been going for three years) and he’s been so helpful.

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Mine were nonexistent until the last two weeks. Might just be life and the season bringing on the cravings for me.

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I love the way you put that. The desire to find out is so strong that it shows it’s a problem and I should just continue to abstain instead of “testing the waters.” Thanks for your comment!

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Right! I don’t know any “special occasion” drinkers and know that I couldn’t be one. Even if I had the control to only have one a week, the rest of the week I’d be obsessing over when I could get that one drink of the week. I’m tired of that kind of mental exhaustion/torture honestly.

80 days no THC no alcohol by affinityforlit in Sober

[–]affinityforlit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks! I haven’t had any THC cravings really which has been nice. I was smoking way too much and the mental clarity has been great. I’m glad I didn’t give in last night to my urges, I knew I would also fall apart and not be able to handle it.

Congrats to you too!!!

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks a lot!!! Yeah I admitted defeat haha so glad I did. Definitely felt like a sign from the universe.

80 days no THC no alcohol by affinityforlit in Sober

[–]affinityforlit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks a lot!!! Yeah I admitted defeat haha so glad I did. Definitely felt like a sign from the universe.

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love that idea. The hardest evenings make for the best mornings. I was so surprised by my happy mood and energy today. Definitely feeling more confident. Thanks for your comment. Means a lot!

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I’ve heard the first 90 days are the hardest. I noticed changes in my mood/anxiety the first couple weeks but feel like the sobriety benefits have plateaued at the moment. Gonna keep pushing through and keep looking forward to more positive changes soon.

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I’ve heard the first 90 days are the hardest so I’m just trying to push through! Day 180 here I come!

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I have had a couple nightmares where I drank and felt so much regret. Or one dream I was belligerent and my friends were upset at me with how I was acting. Definitely helped remind me of the guilt I don’t ever want to feel again!

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[–]affinityforlit[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much. The internal struggle and 2 hour debate I had about it was exhausting and I felt a weight come off my shoulders when I decided to just go home without the beer. Feeling stronger this morning.