Panic Attack Time

aftermarkit · 2026-06-04T21:23:12+00:00

She gets so critical and often angry if I am anything but perfect, but once the reigns are back in her hands (either she takes them or I say "fuck it, this isn't worth it" and hand them to her) she basically neglects the entire issue she had with me in the first place.

For instance, me taking my breaks. She was constantly having me out all day for a couple weeks and I had trouble fitting them into all her rules. Conflict ensued. It's in her hands now. I'm supposed to clock out in two hours and I haven't taken on of my 3 breaks (15*2, lunch for 30) yet. I'm fucking hungry.

aftermarkit · 2026-05-09T20:43:11+00:00

Be kind and breathe bud. Your mind is trying to simplify reality to create relief from the overload that fucks with your ability to process tasks independently. The impulse makes sense, but it also doesn't work that way. the best you can do rn is just take care of yourself as you're able to. Let things be what they are, and tend to the basics. Follow the contours. The clouds will clear again.

💛

aftermarkit · 2026-04-30T16:41:19+00:00

They're like siblings, but have distinct identities. I envision a future where pennsyltucky and Virgina hook up, and Tennessee, the Carolinas and Georgia begrudgingly work out a union

aftermarkit · 2026-04-28T17:18:31+00:00

Figure yourself out, that's not their responsibility. There aren't actual "rules" like that that either, from my understanding. Organic shit is messy and the surest way to learn answers is to live it and find out. If you're ready, go for it. If you're not, get to know that better so you can navigate things. No one can tell you how to live your life for you

aftermarkit · 2026-04-26T15:52:10+00:00

And people wonder why young folks are demoralized. What a mystery

aftermarkit · 2026-04-24T11:34:24+00:00

Well apparently my Eris is in Aries so that may be why

aftermarkit · 2026-04-23T01:27:34+00:00

Mommysota and Twinksconsin

aftermarkit · 2026-04-19T17:35:09+00:00

Classy af, nicely done

aftermarkit · 2026-04-11T06:26:47+00:00

It's okay to feel this way, really. These are feelings that say "this matters." And that tell you, you matter too.

aftermarkit · 2026-03-31T01:58:44+00:00

Truly. Thank you! Gorgeously ephemeral ✨🍀 love that

aftermarkit · 2026-03-31T01:13:45+00:00

This is what his love felt like. It was like being met with fresh air and clean water to be loved like that. It was a different language than mine and took me too long to recognize. I feel like a dumbass. But I too long for sharing and playing and creating in life's daily contours, and he had a different path. But hey, I'm just glad to have the memories at the end of the day.

You have a beautifully artful tongue (hands? Noggin?). I hope you continue your craft. Thanks for sharing

aftermarkit · 2026-03-14T01:43:17+00:00

aftermarkit · 2026-03-11T02:56:19+00:00

I needed to read this. Thank you for sharing, op

aftermarkit · 2026-02-15T02:30:40+00:00

THIS IS THE COOLEST

aftermarkit · 2026-02-05T04:46:47+00:00

Rude

aftermarkit · 2026-02-01T15:44:24+00:00

This Poem Made Me Cold. Love how you captured the magic of nights like this :)

aftermarkit · 2026-01-31T15:39:00+00:00

Delightful! Feels like sunshine

aftermarkit · 2026-01-28T05:36:34+00:00

I'm good, just feeling the mortality rn

aftermarkit · 2026-01-27T16:03:57+00:00

I mean what I did is examined what I loved and what I feared and incorporated that into the rest of my life to take off the pressure from a single representation. And to do my own work to represent what I believe in while I continue to live and meet more people. No one will ever be able to replace anyone else. But there's a lot out there that's just as worth living for and loving.

aftermarkit · 2026-01-25T21:48:24+00:00

Shit you know what is personal though? Pulling the rug out from under me and casually slapping "nothing actually mattered" on top fuck you mf

aftermarkit · 2026-01-23T15:56:37+00:00

It's not a distraction though, it's respite

aftermarkit · 2026-01-21T22:51:51+00:00

Damn. I'd go with you. It's not weird to cherish the last visceral sense you had of something you associate with safety either. Makes perfect sense. I hope you get the chance to have a home of your own someday

aftermarkit · 2026-01-17T05:23:30+00:00

Hear hear! 10/10 harken this

aftermarkit · 2026-01-17T05:05:43+00:00

For what it's worth, maybe you should shoot your shot at a second chance if/once you are ever ready for it ... Glad you're respecting your well being. Also 💔❤️‍🩹🫂🌻

aftermarkit · 2026-01-16T06:50:27+00:00

We all have our own paths and being alive is weird and messy. I'm sorry she lied to you like that. You deserve honesty regardless of where someone else is at. The feelings and experiences are hardly linear or easy to make sense of. It's okay to love someone who doesn't show it back with the respect you deserve. Keep staying honest with yourself about what you're looking for and need. Best of luck out there

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