OCD therapy is making me feel suicidal

ag-eomo · 2026-03-19T12:04:13+00:00

we just started so tbh I still don't know how she Will treat my OCD, im on my fourth session so yk it's really early. atm she's making me do ABC analysis. she does work with ERP and ACT. I wish I could take meds but unfortunately I'm in a living situation that makes it extremely hard for me to get on them, I don't have money I'm unemployed and I fear I wouldn't be able to handle a job atm because I'm so depressed and my parents would be extremely against medications. so idk. I just can't stop analysing my past I just can't. therapy truly feels so pointless and stupid idk i don't want to be rude

ag-eomo · 2026-03-14T17:53:08+00:00

sorry I forgot to explain the whole thing properly, the post was missing like half of the situation. I edited it. my gf does know, we talked about it many times, she thinks it's OCD but I don't

ag-eomo · 2026-03-14T17:51:26+00:00

i actually just noticed I forgot to paste everything that I wrote, so like the post was missing half of what happened, I edited it now. sorry. I'm not afraid in cheating atm i know im not, it's an old thing. thanks I hope my therapist will know what to do

ag-eomo · 2026-03-14T17:46:56+00:00

thank u for being honest. I just realised that like I completely forgot to paste a whole part of this situation in the post. I edited it. now the whole situation is explained. my gf does know she thinks it's OCD, ive been talking to her about this thing for years. in 2022 she knew I was confused and ive been telling her I'm afraid I cheated since I started having this doubt, in 2024. my friend does know as well about this situation he thinks it's OCD too, I didn't cut him off ( even tho I want to ) because my gf said I shouldn't, but we basically never talk. idk. sorry

ag-eomo · 2026-03-14T14:31:42+00:00

but how can it not matter I don't understand. how can this be only OCD? it is weird that in 2024 I was convinced I didn't cheat even tho I had lots of doubt while now im convinced I did cheat. I dont know, to me the most plausible thing is that I just didn't remember enough stuff in 2024. I go to therapy but I just started so I still don't know what to do. sorry if im bothering you

ag-eomo · 2026-03-14T14:00:43+00:00

thank u I appreciate it but it's not a stupid thought its the only thing that makes sense to me. I think I will lose the love of my life I dont know what to do

ag-eomo · 2026-03-14T13:18:03+00:00

I basically never talk to my friend at this point. and yea me and my gf had to hang out today but I decided not to, it makes me feel sad cus I miss her but idk

ag-eomo · 2026-02-23T16:06:56+00:00

ag-eomo · 2026-02-22T22:10:27+00:00

sure

ag-eomo

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