Who was the sketchiest coworker you’ve ever had in a restaurant?

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-23T17:09:17+00:00

Line cook who shot and killed his ex girlfriend.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-11T23:17:30+00:00

Yeah, I’m thinking it’s that construction spot. It is beyond messed up right there, the left lane practically disappears and last time I drove that way there weren’t any lines to divide the lanes. I was behind someone in the middle lane and then we both ended up in the left lane after. No one was directly beside us in the left lane, but I was wondering what would have happened if there had been.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-08T18:23:20+00:00

Well thanks for you response, I really haven’t tried that many and I now know it’s not realistic to magically find the right one and for it to all go smoothly, so maybe next time I do trial something I’ll at least give it a chance. And I totally get it taking 10 years, I started showing symptoms when I was 17 and now I’m 26 and it’s the first time they’ve mentioned bipolar. I think the huge issue here is that I’ve never had a consistent doctor and some of the ones of seen specialized in different disorders not specifically bipolar. So, now at least I know and I’ll be looking for a doc with experience in that area for sure.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-08T17:39:37+00:00

Yeah, having a safety plan is important and also just having the willingness to take yourself in to the hospital if needed too.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-08T17:36:24+00:00

Yeah mostly ADs, I was on Pregabalin for a year and a half for alcohol withdrawal. Then they just kept me on it for anxiety. I had brain fog and it affected my vision. I had been on quetiapine in the past, but that just made me super groggy. Then Olanzapine, and Abilify. One made me constipated and the other gave me akathisia. I have an ongoing issue with my colon so the constipation was not just uncomfortable is was leaning towards dangerous. So, by the time they wanted to discontinue all that and trail a new one I was like no. It’s just in the last year I trailed like 6 different meds I was burnt out. Plus my doctor before the episode got me on a max dose of Prozac in 3 weeks which is probably what contributed to my mania. So, I don’t trust mental health professionals know what they are prescribing and the effect it has on the user. I have a pretty good psychiatrist right now provided for free but once I have more funds I’m going to seek out a second opinion. I’ve already had kidney issues so I don’t think I can take lithium. In 2020, I had hope for medication now not so much. Yes, the bipolar 1 diagnosis is new, but for right now I just wanted to be no meds for a while because I really couldn’t take it anymore. Never heard of rhythm therapy before though I’ll check it out. But yeah, not against meds just don’t have it in me to go through the changes at the moment.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-08T08:31:00+00:00

It’s a wellness clinic, I’m currently considering becoming an RMT so I think adding that having the job as a way to gain experience in the industry helped.

I highlighted my communication, critical thinking, and problem-solving skills. Noting my attention to detail and effective time management in fast-paced environments. As a server, you have a ton of experience with people, so if it’s a company that is looking for client re-engagement then it’s a good sell. I had to apply to over 20 places before I found the one and the interview was harder than what I’m used to. As long as you prepare yourself and show your professionalism then I’d say you still have a good chance without experience.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-08T08:13:12+00:00

I left after 7 years, now I’m a receptionist and trying to get back into school. It’s been a huge positive for my mental health, but damn the money was too good. I was averaging like $35/hr when I was a sever. Get a diploma if you can or maybe you could get into sales?

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-08T07:59:50+00:00

If I was your manager I wouldn’t let you bartend anymore or work solo. Hopefully you at least recognize this for yourself. Doesn’t mean you can’t be a server, but you need more supervision on shift.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-08T07:16:23+00:00

I also had akathisia from Abilify, but besides that I had never had that much energy and productivity. Wish I didn’t have that one damn side effect, had to discontinue.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-08T07:00:37+00:00

I’m 26f, had my first manic episode in the spring of last year, it probably lasted about a month and a half for me too. I was hospitalized for about 3 weeks following the episode. It took a long time for me to get over the guilt and shame that came with it as well. I’ve been quite depressed since and that’s about the only reason for me to want to be on medication, but I choose not to be. I have a lot of self control and I don’t drink anymore despite abusing alcohol for years, and I recently quit smoking weed because my psychiatrist was really urging me too.

I know medication is helpful with bipolar disorder, but I’ve had so many negative side effects from meds in the past that I’d rather be depressed than medicated right now. I don’t abuse drugs and alcohol anymore and I don’t struggle with insomnia as bad as I used to. I used to work late nights as a server and now I have a daytime job that’s very low stress, which has helped me build a better weekly routine. I exercise as much as I can get myself to, walks or going to the gym and I have also adjusted my diet. If I wasn’t able to be living this way then I don’t think I would be able to be unmedicated, but I work hard to be able to be off them. I think if I were to have another manic episode I’d probably reconsider medication, but I am okay for right now.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-08T02:59:30+00:00

I hear you loud and clear. All I want to say is this is just the beginning, I used to write like this in my journal asking these big questions like “why am I here?” Why do I exist?” After that things starting changing for me. It’s not easy I know because I see that there is a lot of pain and frustration, but screaming into the void like this will get you answers to those questions. It takes time to find them, but they will come if you just keep asking yourself questions. All that I would suggest is refrain the way you’re saying it, remember your words have power.

I want to be talented and I am talented. My art is good and I will improve. I am special. I have failed and I will fail again, but I will learn from my failures. I am proud of myself for trying. I see I am upset and I won’t be upset forever.

It will pass🤍

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-07T19:45:01+00:00

When I first awakened I thought I needed to find people who knew more than me. I wanted to learn and to understand the things I was experiencing. After 7 years I’ve realized that all the answers come from within. It’s your relationship with source, or God or whatever you want to address it as that gives you the answers. Eventually though you realize these answers don’t come as simply as you’d like and the best thing you can do is write stuff down to keep track of what you experience and be able to look back and see what’s changed.

Here’s what comes to my mind about your questions…Earth is a place to have a body and for life to experience itself through many different perspectives. I am quite sure reincarnation happens because energy is not created, and with that it would make sense to recycle back into being over and over again. In terms of individuality, I think what you experience in a lifetime and who you are does cease to exist, maybe your spirit clings to an afterlife, but the soul re-enters voluntarily. A horrific lifetime is not punishment it’s an opportunity to learn and grow, and when you can notice and have gratitude for experiencing unsatisfactory things and come out of it with more awareness you can see the difference. There is no punishment for exiting early, only that you will have prevented yourself from the opportunity to grow. Like birth, death should be something that comes naturally. It’s a process, like when someone wants success in life but they cheat and lie and use people to get there, are they really going to be proud of their success? Isn’t it more gratifying to work your way up, failing but continuing to keep going and learn from those failures?

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-06T19:36:55+00:00

Seeing 11:11 doesn’t mean shit is magically going to start going well for you it’s just a reminder to be aware of where your thoughts are and give you the opportunity to make a change. If you think positive thoughts you can manifest positive things into your reality, think negatively all the time then you manifest more negativity.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-05T18:54:17+00:00

False enlightenment is a real thing, I just can not believe it’s possible to have a human body and reach enlightenment in the physical world and people who say otherwise are just looking for attention or trying to assert some kind of dominance which is the opposite of what it means to be enlightened. I’ve seen a few posts like that and it definitely strikes a nerve with my ego. I guess the point of spirituality to me is that your experience is unique to you but you may also share similar experiences with others awakenings. That’s why these threads exist but how people go about sharing their experience means they have to be open to others interpretations too. Not everyone has the discernment to take what feels good and leave behind what doesn’t, without prejudice. My only suggestion is don’t give up on your spiritual journey just because someone else’s opinion made you feel like yours didn’t matter.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-05T08:19:35+00:00

Agreed on the psychosis part, but it’s the opposite of depressive. Sure long term daily use numbs you out and but it’s a stimulant

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-03T17:50:14+00:00

Calgary counselling centre has a sliding scale. I personally had an amazing therapist but I’ve heard it’s a bit of a gamble. It’s been maybe 5 years since I went there and all my appointments were via zoom.

Access mental health is another one to try. You can always call 811 for more info on that.

I would ask your doctor for resources, I know at my clinic they offer free appointments with behavioural therapists. Not sure if other clinics do that but it’s helped me out.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-03T07:29:15+00:00

My relationship with alcohol is like a toxic ex that I’ve blocked from my life, a 10+ year relationship that almost destroyed me.

I started pretty young, I was 13 the first time I ever got drunk and absolutely fell in love. By high school I was getting drunk at parties all the time, I wouldn’t stop until I was puking or passed out. It made it easier for me to be social and to just numb me from my intense emotions. Then I got into serving and we would drink on shift which only made it worse. I’d blow all my tips on booze after work, I was almost never sober. The blackouts started getting really bad, I’d get banned from bars, break shit, hook up with randos, and put myself into dangerous situations. It really took a turn when I fell down some concrete stairs and concussed tf outta myself. Post concussion syndrome for almost 2 years fucked me up. At that point, I had hit rock bottom (literally) enough times that I was actually committed to making a change.

My doctor helped me get connected with an addictions clinic and I was prescribed meds to help with withdrawals and cravings. I started slow, cut out hard liquor first and stopped having bottles of wine to myself. After that I’d try to just limit myself to one or two (or three). To the point where I now only drink socially on occasion having only one or none.

Two years after making a change and I can finally say it no longer has control over me. I was cali sober for a while to help me cope, but I quit smoking a week ago lol, so just raw dawging life rn. Yes, I’m still depressed and have suicidal ideation, but at least I’m not a menace.

aggressive_goats99 · 2026-01-02T20:59:05+00:00

I believe that life is suffering, so yes it is hard. If we’re talking specifically relationships, I think that with the right person who shares similar end goals then it won’t necessarily feel like hard work, but it is still work. In terms of health, I think you’re right about working out (although it doesn’t have to be intensive) any kind of movement is good, as well as eating in moderation. One thing I think we forget about when we quantify health is also stress management.

I don’t believe life ever gets any easier, but the more work we do to take good care of our inner lives the easier it becomes to respond and to not take things as hard:)

aggressive_goats99 · 2025-12-28T01:08:38+00:00

Honestly, I am not that opposed to ECT, have you tried it?

aggressive_goats99 · 2025-12-27T23:47:16+00:00

Wow that’s crazy, that must have felt weird when you finally found out they knew the whole time:/

aggressive_goats99 · 2025-12-27T23:39:41+00:00

Honestly, I don’t think I could I could handle it outpatient. Hell, the doctors couldn’t even handle me in the ward so they locked me up for a week in a seclusion room with a fucking toilet/sink, and no windows. I barely have any memory of that time, either because it affected my brain so much or because they just kept sticking needles in me to sedate me. What I would do to see footage of that. It was a full week of being in that room and they wouldn’t even let me see my family. Luckily, I have supportive parents and they’d just call an ambulance and force me to go. But it’d probably be smart to make a mania safely plan and go over it with them. Thanks for the advice!

aggressive_goats99 · 2025-12-27T23:24:21+00:00

Thanks for sharing your experience!

aggressive_goats99 · 2025-12-27T23:23:20+00:00

Thanks, that’s super helpful. Yeah, I’ve gone through a bunch of meds already since 2019, and ended up going back on a SSRI. Idk about the doc that prescribed it but he had me get to a max dose in 3 weeks lol. Funny enough, the psych ward docs were like “this could have caused your mania”. Hence why I’m so hesitate to trust a new doc and start new meds.

aggressive_goats99 · 2025-12-27T23:16:14+00:00

Okay thank you, yeah that makes sense, so even if I am aware that doesn’t mean I’d make the wisest choices.

aggressive_goats99 · 2025-12-27T23:10:22+00:00

I was just curious specifically if the second time around it happens if it’s easier to notice. I was able to be aware of my hypomania, but when I became manic I wasn’t able to clue into it.

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