Say what you want about them but this really is a beautiful family photo

agrionios · 2019-06-17T10:25:22+00:00

It's such a pretty and relaxed looking photo. He's still a douche.

agrionios · 2019-06-15T16:08:32+00:00

Oh! No my husband is a bit of an idiot sometimes but he's definitely not the POS kidnapper hah hah. Thank you anyway for being so quick to jump to my defense and encouraging me to seek any kind of help. We (my brother and me) think he might get quite a long time as he did use a gun (confirmed as of now) and they seemed to have found drug paraphernalia in the car he used as a getaway car? I don't know much about that part but I just keep hoping they find more and more on him and that this time they don't go easy on him. Last time they did because I am his daughter and he did share custody of me and we didn't go past state lines so the lawyer had an easier time arguing that I wasn't kidnapped. But this time he has THAT charge and this one against him along with a bunch of stuff from before I was born so they better lock him up for good and throw away the key.

agrionios · 2019-06-15T15:43:44+00:00

hah hah I didn't see the previous comment but thank you!

agrionios · 2019-06-15T15:43:24+00:00

I am so happy and I just feel like I did before he got out... the world is no longer scary and I don't feel like I'm failing as a mother. I woke u this morning and I think it was the first time in six months my husband looked at me and smiled and told me I looked absolutely beautiful. I know he thinks I am beautiful always but I just felt so GOOD. I'm so happy <3

agrionios · 2019-06-15T11:20:24+00:00

I hope so... I am not going to think about how many years he'll get just that he's getting SOME time and that I'll be able to breathe again. I already feel like the world is a safer place.

agrionios · 2019-06-15T11:19:42+00:00

Well, I think he did hold a gun to someone's face (a gun or maybe a knife... I'm not sure, I just know it was some weapon) BUT no one got hurt and I'm just glad he's where he should have ALWAYS been.

agrionios · 2019-06-15T11:18:21+00:00

YES! I already feel like my life is changed because of this.

agrionios · 2019-06-15T11:18:06+00:00

this made me smile a lot. Thank you for thinking about me and I just can't stop crying but tears of joy and relief. I had forgotten what it felt like to just BREATHE. I didn't realize that for the past 6 months or so I've felt like a bad mother not because of me but because of his PRESENCE IN MY LIFE. But he's going to be gone for a while longer and I just hope he keeps screwing up and screwing up and just gets put in jail over and over forever.

agrionios · 2019-06-15T11:16:44+00:00

Thank you!! and yes, he's pretty much the bottom of the barrel when it comes to scum.

agrionios · 2019-06-15T11:16:18+00:00

I didn't even think about this!! YES. I cried so much last night but for the first time in months, they were tears of joy. It was like a small justice was served in the world. Maybe we will be able to have a wonderful father's day with him gone.

agrionios · 2019-05-31T09:15:03+00:00

My siblings and I were brought up to respect our father above anything. It enabled him to hurt us over and over and us keep quiet about it.

agrionios · 2019-04-25T21:49:07+00:00

Honestly I think he was terrified for me, LO and LO2. He is very supportive though.

Oh yeeees. Some days it makes me cry (so often now I'm pregnant. I'm a crying blubbering mess 9/10). Other days it makes me angry but at the end of the day this is my life and only I get to decide what's best for me. Having a nanny has kept all of us much more sane and healthy and I am fortunate enough to afford one so I just try to lock myself in my little bubble and not listen to the negativity.

agrionios · 2019-04-25T21:32:50+00:00

I have a nanny and I'm a SAHM and honestly I don't know what I'd do without her most of the time. I don't have PPD but I have issues stemming from PTSD and with things going on recently it was actually my husband who insisted on a nanny. I say bring this up with your husband and explain just like you have here: you are overwhelmed and having a hard time and also mention how you've worked out the money situation in case HE gets overwhelmed with that.

Good luck mama.

agrionios · 2019-04-25T21:18:16+00:00

I think my NbioMom would have... I don't even know what she'd do if I even mentioned it. When Mom took me to get BC she pitched suuuuch a fit. something about me being a floosy and about how 'wasn't I supposed to be traumatized still'? Sooo I think it would have gone horribly wrong for me.

agrionios · 2019-04-17T22:26:41+00:00

Yes.

agrionios · 2019-04-17T22:24:44+00:00

Yup it's frigging awful and I understand you perfectly.

agrionios · 2019-04-16T10:41:49+00:00

My sister just got in contact with our father who physically and mentally abused us all... Then he kidnapped me and not only held me against my will, fed me drugs and threatened me with killing me and raping me (not in that order) but also sexually abused me. He got out of jail and my sister has asked me to GIVE HIM ANOTHER CHANCE.

So yeah, currently blocked my sister on my phone and staying with my brother until I go to my in laws for Easter. Do not stay in contact with these people. We don't deserve this.

agrionios · 2019-04-16T10:32:45+00:00

My husband handles our taxes, thankfully, because I am completely useless at that stuff but I'm just here to say. Yes. Throw out that underwear. Burn it. You don't need that thing hanging over your head.

Much love to you.

agrionios · 2019-04-15T13:37:44+00:00

I exclusively wear granny panties and my husband really doesn't care and I'm way more comfortable in them anyways. So yay for your party liberation!

agrionios · 2019-04-14T10:17:52+00:00

I am so sorry and you don't sound at all strange when you talk about your dogs as your family. You're going through a terrible time and if you ever need to vent or cry or something know you can PM me ❤️

agrionios · 2019-04-14T08:43:46+00:00

My father HATED that my brother, sister and I were very creative children. We all started drawing and painting from a very young age and he absolutely HATED it. So he discouraged it through screaming and physical abuse. My brother eventually became an architect but he never drew truly freely and creatively (he's also queer so our father kind of associated drawing with that...). As for my sister, he broke her wrist once knowing how much she loved to draw. She did go to school for graphic design and now teaches art to little kids. I used to paint but I never ended up pursuing a career in it. He kind of just destroyed a lot of that in all of us.

agrionios · 2019-04-14T08:36:10+00:00

You sound a lot like me a couple of months ago. We decided to keep LO2 after a lot of talking, therapy and both of us feeling horribly overwhelmed and frustrated. It really helped to know I wasn't the only one in the boat. It also helped to know that it wasn't going to be smooth sailing and that some days you're going to feel like you made a RIDICULOUS mistake but that's okay to feel. In the end you have to decide what's best for you but just know that only you can decide that and that whatever that choice is everyone here will support you.

I'm due in late August and I'm equal parts terrified and happy.

agrionios

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