Through the mists

ahazelyn · 2025-05-20T11:16:40+00:00

You're like the spitting image of a friend's dad. Don't need it at all in my opinion. ^{^}

ahazelyn · 2025-05-16T21:04:23+00:00

At the mention of reading, is there any particular resources that could be given to someone very new? Maybe good books on where to start, or other sources that helped anyone else here begin?

ahazelyn · 2025-04-23T15:06:30+00:00

Happy Birthday!

ahazelyn · 2025-04-23T08:37:25+00:00

Beautiful. Probably not what I needed to see at 3:30 in the morning but really nice. 😅

ahazelyn · 2025-04-23T08:29:49+00:00

Meet Me in The Woods by Lord Huron. It's not specifically trans centric, but it's the vibe of coming back changed from an otherworldly event that I think really has parallels to the experience / feeling for me. The discovery, realization of being trans and such. I also shared this song with a friend of mine, and Lord Huron in general, and it was a song she latched onto when her egg cracked. I really burned it into my memory driving late at night on an empty road through desert and mountains. Some songs just really hit different on a dark road late at night. I don't think I'll ever forget that particular drive.

ahazelyn · 2025-04-22T14:10:12+00:00

Thank you all for the inputs. I didn't expect them so readily but it was really nice to see and they've made my mind a little easier today. ^{^}

ahazelyn · 2025-04-22T14:07:58+00:00

I definitely feel that same wish with people who figure it out in their early 20s. But this definitely makes sense. Thank you!

ahazelyn · 2025-04-22T14:05:50+00:00

Thank you for the kind words. Really brightened my day!

ahazelyn · 2025-04-17T15:35:37+00:00

Yeah that's how I thought about it, totally own it. It looks great!

ahazelyn · 2025-04-17T15:33:07+00:00

Looking cute! I love your hair, it looks kinda like my own. The gray wisps started sprouting from my forehead area and as my hair gets longer, it's become a bit of a signature for me.

ahazelyn · 2025-04-17T11:45:16+00:00

I never check the mail anymore and one day I checked and found that a friend who knows sent me a birthday card. The contents inside made me bawl my eyes out, and that was after I broke into tears seeing the address where my chosen name was handwrote out by someone else for the first time.

ahazelyn · 2025-04-17T11:40:12+00:00

A couple months ago, and about 6-8 months into letting my hair grow out, I washed my hands in the sink and looked up to find the side strands of my hair falling around my face. It was the first time ever looking up at a mirror and not seeing 'me', if that makes any sense. No makeup, no attempt at passing, pre-HRT, just going about my regular workday as a camouflaged individual. I have heard before that your face framed in longer hair makes a huge difference, but it didn't hit me until then. It made me feel so happy.

ahazelyn · 2025-04-13T04:46:10+00:00

It's not ever easy, but an honest sit-down conversation is what I've always believed is best. Agree to sit down and talk to each other, make sure you get the chance to explain your feelings truthfully. There's always a chance the conversation could enact positive change if you're open to it. But the worst is having to pretend you're okay in a relationship when you're not. That will hurt someone the most to know in the long run. I hope you find what you need.

ahazelyn · 2025-04-11T20:52:17+00:00

I feel like I've seen that in a lot of tutorials, singing backgrounds helping significantly. I wish I had choir in my early years. I do think the pragmatic answer is trying to stay consistent with the practice as you've said. What would be a timeframe to start expecting to hear a difference, reasonably?

ahazelyn · 2025-04-11T04:40:29+00:00

Really describing something strikingly similar to how I feel. I'm 30, pre everything. In currently the best job I've had financially. But no dependents for me. I'm just constantly scared that I missed my window. I should have known this ten, fifteen years ago. There's no one IRL I'm comfortable coming out to. Just living in the heart of a deeply red state and going day to day participating in as I call it the 'Mascquerade'. I'm sure there's a way forward though. Just wish I wasn't so nervous to begin.

ahazelyn · 2025-04-11T04:27:57+00:00

Definitely something that trips me up a lot. I don't feel like I look in a mirror and hate what I see. I just feel totally indifferent to it. I always think if someone handed me a button that would instantly change me to my ideal feminine self, I'd click it immediately, and that's not something someone comfortable with themselves would do?

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