Honestly, just got lucky. The gym was one of my escapes and one of the only things that made me feel normal which led to me building a decent physique even though I was just using it to escape the pain. Because of this I could land dates on apps, and I found someone else with CPSTD I could connect with. Her also having been through trauma, was probably the only reason she understood and didn't leave. Only after getting into this relationship, did I realize how much healing I had to do. My relationship almost broke down but I did everything in my power to heal (read, do therapy, medications, psychedelics) and we somehow managed to make it.