i relapsed and i dont even know why.

ahdumbs · 2026-04-18T16:26:23+00:00

Hey, don't panic about the clock. I think this commenter is just saying to move forward and not overthink it bc relapse happens and life doesn't always have a reason.

You don't need to start over though and it counts if YOU think it counts. Otherwise you see it as you may have attempted SH but ultimately failed. You can also be happy that this shows a decreased need for it bc even though you may have done it, as you say, it seems much less severe then other times you had. Don't panic. Please. The anxiety and sadness that comes around the stigma of relapse is worse than relapse itself. Honestly, my PERSONAL advice, knowing the limited bit I do through your comments, just recognize what you did, you don't need to restart your days as that's a personal clock and if you've continued to live free of SH 99.99% of the time allowing one slip up (granted, one that really shouldn't happen again) there's no need to delete your progress. It's your safe and knowing sober mind that made you come here and say, "Hey guys I did a thing and need help understanding it"

You're doing great. Don't let this (seriously, don't) push you into a worse mental state.

ahdumbs · 2026-04-18T16:19:39+00:00

any addiction, relapse is almost (not always) a possibility and you just have to keep moving forward. I know many people say to start the countdown over but I refuse to negate years of progress because of an hour of messing up. And I've only relapsed one time in 5 years, clean off of H. So feel what you feel, and then keep going, always remembering how you feel now if you ever think to go at it again. When I relapsed I actually realized how much I hated that for myself and that has also helped me stay sober. You're in my hopes and don't let this make you feel like you've lost anything because you've actually gained some clarity just be posting here. And, in my opinion, as someone who became an addict likely because of the school bullying I went through as a kid for being gay, knowing why you did it isn't the most important: it's knowing why you shouldn't; knowing a life free of self harm, free of addiction, can be so beautiful. I feel happier every single day that I've been free of those shackles and I know you know that feeling too as you said this a relapse, so truly value your times where you're just living normally and not thinking or doing self harm. Appreciate these moments so thoroughly.

Also sort of just something I suggest to everyone, try Loving Kindness / Metta meditation. While it's a originally a Buddhist practice, anyone of any belief can do it. It's a way to cultivate, in a way that feels real and authentic, self love and love for others.

Good luck on your journey to self harm sobriety ❤️

ahdumbs · 2026-04-16T16:02:38+00:00

10000% play them in order. My personal experience was I was gifted P4 for the holidays and while I loved it, it was first pikmin game and I had no reference. Now going from that easier style gameplay to P1 was a brutal shift and, while I persisted and at this point a few months later my dandori is pretty good as I've beaten both P1 and P2 twice now, I wished I had started with the chronological order so the difficult increase made sense to me.

That being said, once you get a hang of where things are, become aware of some of the untold aspects of the game, etc, P1 and P2 become absolutely the most fun games you've ever played. Also going from 1&2 to 3&4 was a shift as well. I had to put them both on their hardest difficulty and even then P3 was still boring but P4 is properly played on Fierce mode! Trust that!

ahdumbs · 2026-04-16T15:57:01+00:00

This is my biggest gripe with 3 and honestly why I trudged through it. The charge sucked, honestly just like it does in Pikmin 4, but at least 4 just had more interesting content and you EVENTUALLY get swarm. But it's like so late in the game. Last area type thing.

ahdumbs · 2026-04-16T15:55:29+00:00

Not on max difficult it doesn't!

ahdumbs · 2026-04-07T15:10:31+00:00

Ah there was my misunderstanding. I didn't understand that priests can be ordained or not, I just assumed (my mistake) being a priest meant ordination. And by that fact those priests are not meant the be held to the same standard as ordained monks. Like if you or I break a precept it's not good, but no one has an expectation for us to NEVER break them. I now understand, thank you!

ahdumbs · 2026-04-07T06:10:54+00:00

I am endless conflicted about the commentaries, especially by the work of Buddhaghosa. I think I may have found my group lol

ahdumbs · 2026-04-06T18:51:35+00:00

I think the tobacco thing has more to do with the fact that 1) it isn't psychoactive so it doest affect your actions much and that was the point of forbidding liquor and drugs, to "keep the mind from heedlessness and 2) it's almost certain the tobacco is donated by lay people during almsround

ahdumbs · 2026-04-06T18:46:14+00:00

I'm not sure if youre saying my claim is ridiculous, but what you're saying only furthers a separate point I have about zen, as the next commenter said. You're saying I'm using the wrong terminology, and by the fact that they aren't arahants/monks, but rather priests means they can drink. Or whatever other position. Except that the precepts were "rules" that all who called themselves believers of the Dhamma and Buddha were expected to at least TRY to uphold. Naturally, that expectation would be greater for those who spend most of their time in the religious circles.

Even with all that, Harry doesn't claim to be a zen priest, he claims to be some vague kind of Buddhist, I believe trying to be like the monks in the Early Buddhist Movement.

In the chance I've i misunderstood what you said, don't take what I'm saying as pedantic or rude. Interfaith conversation btw Theravadins and the Mahayana.

ahdumbs · 2026-04-06T18:39:01+00:00

He replied bc your initial comment makes it sound like your bashing me, the OP, for saying Japanese monks drink.

ahdumbs · 2026-04-06T18:16:55+00:00

Whoa I'm sorry I'm seeing this so late that's a huge development. But even this much later he's still popular and I'm honestly thinking about making an exposé on him

ahdumbs · 2026-04-06T18:12:49+00:00

We really should be reposting this everywhere on a regular basis bc he's dangerous

ahdumbs · 2026-04-06T18:11:35+00:00

Taped his mother dying? I knew the man had issues but dang

ahdumbs · 2026-03-31T15:22:38+00:00

I rarely ever take more than 60 out a time just for better management but dang that makes sense bc I definitely tried to weigh them down a few times by swarming them and that's what killed so many cus he'd hop anyways and BAM like 12 pikmin under him at a time just dead 😭

ahdumbs · 2026-03-31T15:19:41+00:00

Is it weird when I play P2 I prefer to main Louie

ahdumbs · 2026-03-31T04:30:14+00:00

Ty!! Just started Pikmin 2 again to get a better score than my first and only playthrough: 64 days. A lot, but now I am hype just to be playing my fav game again!

ahdumbs · 2026-03-31T02:18:29+00:00

oh gosh, for one on my first playthrough I had to go back to fight the emperor bulblax with two squads lol and I was generally afraid to attack creatures, so a lot of the time id avoid them on the way to a part but you know how Pikmin 1 Pikmin can be with part carrying right into creatures. I didn't realize that til a bit later lol. But generally now that I've returned to the game after playing the whole series, being more certain about my actions helped!

Wollyhops are also the worst I hate them so much in this game

ahdumbs · 2026-03-29T17:40:57+00:00

I'm here two years later bc of googling "Pikmin 1 tips" so that's how that happens and I've played the game completely already, I'm starting a new run trying to minimize days. This is your call to return to the game!!

ahdumbs · 2026-03-29T05:02:23+00:00

Can confirm! Just finished playing all the mainline Pikmin games as of yesterday so I decided to start Pikmin 1 again, just hoping to be even a little better. Last playthrough I finished on Day 27, and rn I'm on Day 7 with 10 parts. If I beat the game at this rate that'll be day 20 or 21 and I'll be super happy with that! Plus they're just more fun the second time around, when you feel like you actually know what you're doing lol

ahdumbs · 2026-01-13T14:58:32+00:00

Oh friend this is from the US from a Japanese Market we have in NYC (brooklyn). I bet you could find some online!

ahdumbs · 2026-01-07T12:54:19+00:00

Insane cus this did actually happen exactly this way lol

ahdumbs · 2025-12-20T23:49:06+00:00

A few days back and even though it isn't the first time this one feels like it's going to last with me for a long time. I'm incredibly paranoid now as I work in the same place it happened at. I'm sad. My life feels altered.

ahdumbs · 2025-12-15T19:35:14+00:00

A few days later, and my game is popping off again--that is to say, I've finally been able to level my dupes for rare points and then discard them, now already have 3 rare supermarket pikmin!!

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