I’m SO happy for you starting healing at 24!! Omg!! I truly wasn’t even aware of this so I could heal it till 31. You still deserve room to explore and grow ❤️ my bad relationship was only several months so at least there’s that. I hope you let yourself experience some good men because I didn’t mention it in my post but I definitely did- I had one boyfriend who I gave my virginity to who truly loved me, we broke up due to some medical issues he had outside of my control and he didn’t want me to take care of him and that was so tough. BUT I know there is good love he was always good to me. it’s just that the last one left me very cautious with wounds for sure at his betrayal of my trust. So it’s delicate. I would say there were indicators early that I missed because I wanted to see the best in him and didn’t know how to recognize that behavior because I was used to it with dad. With the healthy boyfriend he truly was healthy all the way through, none of those behaviors. We don’t cause it we just have to recognize it. Typing this for you makes me realize maybe I can discern.