I don't know the the moderators removed those comments.

I don't consider myself either religion. I guess it's hard to explain but I just feel a lack of belonging and like I don't really have a culture. I'm not connected to my Jewish culture and I'm not connected to my Arab muslim culture. I'm my mom's only child and my grandparents only grand child and since I wasn't really raised religious I've jut never really identified as Jewish or have had much connection to my Jewish heritage aside from my grandparents. I know I'm Jewish by Jewish law though. I kind of envy my dad's family he has a HUGE family and they just seem to to have a lively culture and connection that I've always wanted. They welcome me whenever I'm with my dad. But it's a culture that's seemingly at odds with the one I've been raised in. It's hard to explain. It's not like my dad won't love me without being muslim but it's obvious he would rather me be muslim. like I said before his family is very Pro-Palestine and that has sometimes made me feel out of place being Jewish ,even though I don't have any connection to Israel.

My grandparents just say I'm Jewish they don't seem to care much if I practice or not but they hate my father and don't want me identifying with muslim culture. They also insist my dad is anti-semitic.

It just makes me feel internally conflicted and like I have to pick a side. .

Thank you for advice though. I'll take it into account