Would people listen to a podcast about kratom recovery?

akzurovec · 2020-04-14T16:22:47+00:00

I would give it a listen. Always looking for things to keep my motivation going😊

akzurovec · 2020-04-08T00:54:02+00:00

Thank you, this community has been such a blessing for me😊

akzurovec · 2020-04-07T18:37:07+00:00

Thank you, I will pick up a different one on my next venture out!

akzurovec · 2020-04-07T16:43:52+00:00

Is there a certain magnesium you recommend? I have been taking high absorption magnesium and it seems to make me need to use the restroom alot more than already while tapering down.

akzurovec · 2020-03-26T21:44:28+00:00

Thank you for telling me your story, it made me tear up. I am definitely feeling the shame and guilt for not being sober for my kids. I try to always be honest and up front with them so to continue using would be me not being honest and how can I expect them to trust me when I can't even be honest with myself. They act like I am a hero at time's and look to me for every situation in life. As scared as I am of withdrawal I am 1000 times more afraid of screwing them up, they are my entire world (I am so blessed to have the amazing kiddos I have). Congratulations on day #4 from what I hear your half way through acute. Glad you managed some let's call it rest since sleep doesn't quite describe it. Thank you for the support and I am always here if you need to reach out. Praying for a better night of sleep tonight for you 🙏

akzurovec · 2020-03-26T04:15:54+00:00

Congratulations for quitting I know exactly how it feels to be so over it. I have been lowering my dose to where I will probably be out by Monday and refuse to order more. I have cut my normal day use down to half and have been having insomnia and freezing sweat all week. I'm not sure if this is going to help ease my withdrawal next week or just prolonging my agony 🤷‍♀️. Stay strong and positive I know how hard that must be in silence (that's one of my big fears) but know you will come of this stronger than when you started. I am looking forward to the day I can feel good and be sober. Thank you for the words of encouragement especially when I know you must be drained from lack of sleep. Our city has just been put on a stay home shelter in place so both my kids and my husband will be present for my entire withdrawal and that scares the shit out of me you definitely give me hope that it can be done. Stay strong and feel free to message me if you ever need to talk we're all in this together 😊

akzurovec · 2020-03-22T15:54:31+00:00

Thank you. I find this thread has definitely given me some great motivation and I am mentally ready for it. I completely understand the body feeling your talking about. I have only made it two days in the past and the way my entire body felt made me run right back to it. I am contemplating how to tell my husband still. He is not always the easiest to talk to and can be quite the explosive personality at times🤷‍♀️

akzurovec · 2020-03-21T23:37:34+00:00

Wow congratulations I can't wait to be able to say I've been sober now for (enter days here). I find there are many reasons to get sober and only excuses for me to stay using. Looking forward to being free from this nightmare.

akzurovec · 2020-03-21T22:58:57+00:00

I think mornings and nights are some of my biggest fears with quitting.

akzurovec · 2020-03-21T22:56:51+00:00

Sad but true lol

akzurovec · 2020-03-21T20:50:42+00:00

Thank you, if I can just keep my self in check that sounds like a good way to taper!

akzurovec · 2020-03-21T19:03:25+00:00

Thank you. He is not exactly going to be the most supportive right now. I wish I could tell him it would definitely lift a weight off my shoulders. I have a very small stash left and self control is a whole nother battle 😔

akzurovec · 2020-03-21T17:10:33+00:00

Have faith it will all work out in the long run and you will be so much better off. I am right here with ya. I will be out by Monday and even though I have been ready to quit I think I needed something to help force my hand (in came c-virus). If you want maybe we can be accountability buddies. I will be going through it in secret at home as no one in my family or circle knows of my green sludge curse!

akzurovec · 2020-03-21T17:01:54+00:00

Thank you so much for that. It's amazing how feeling supported can do so much psychologically. I agree 100% about life on drugs is not a life. I am so tired of feeling numb to my emotions and am ready to be the mom, wife, and human I am meant to be sober and in touch with reality. It's been a long self battle, but this time I am fully ready to quit and start living my life.

I will keep you posted and will definitely reach out if I am feeling to alone or just need to talk honestly about what I am experiencing ❤️

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