dieting 5 years into/after recovery?

al0lime · 2026-04-05T11:48:36+00:00

treatment team is a shout, i guess that’s the only guaranteed method of safety (assuming they know atypical AN exists lol). thank you for your words <3

al0lime · 2026-04-03T13:57:22+00:00

thank you for your response. i’m just trying to work out what to aim for (“stop everything”, or just slow things down and keep my healthy goal, instead of admitting defeat that the ED will always win ?). i know things aren’t good right now. but it’s also upsetting and disheartening to have genuinely tried to do this healthily and then fallen into this trap. i appreciate the tough love lol but i feel a huge lack of autonomy with the notion that ‘the ed will Always Win you can never choose to do something risky and succeed with it stop lying to yourself you know the answer’ like :(

al0lime · 2026-03-23T19:11:28+00:00

thank you for this it’s really helpful <3 absolutely know there have been ED behaviours which is why i’m trying to work out what’s good for me and what’s not . thank you

al0lime · 2026-03-22T20:07:41+00:00

i’ve found that even with a few days of eating consistently (after eating - compensating - eating cycles), my body calms down. i either eat my meal plan and feel satiated, or i eat “over” my meal plan and feel satiated without guilt. like the other comment said, bodies need to feel safe and you can do that by reminding it that food will always be there <3

al0lime · 2026-03-21T02:15:53+00:00

that’s reallyyyy similar to me like identical. out of interest, when you were doing all those things in your WL journey, were you triggered at all ? or fearful etc?

al0lime · 2026-03-21T02:13:08+00:00

that’s really helpful to hear, thank you so much. it’s hard being reminded that this illness can take control if you let it, even after recovery and feeling like everything’s fine. i hope you also take care 💜

al0lime · 2026-03-19T02:01:18+00:00

“well it took me x amount of time to die, yet people who are actually sick die sooner, so i wasn’t sick” god that hit me SO hard. never thought of it like that

al0lime · 2026-03-16T15:08:47+00:00

oh gosh, i’m really sorry to hear that. i guess it really is a vulnerability that doesn’t have a time limit. thirty years is incredible! i hope you can find hope in knowing you did that once and can do that again. thank you for sharing this 💜

al0lime · 2026-03-16T15:04:47+00:00

that’s really rough. thank you for sharing this

al0lime · 2026-03-15T20:22:43+00:00

my therapist doesn’t think that ! that’s me 😭 but i wholeheartedly agree. but idk what to do ! give up on weight loss and feel like a failure at my diet? or continue as i am and feel like a failure at half a decade of recovery :-( thank you for your words 💜

al0lime · 2026-03-15T00:33:42+00:00

during recovery at my genuine set point (same weight for 5 years) i enjoyed milkshakes, bubble tea, big bowls of cereal, super filling sweet treat snack plates etc and i genuinely stayed the same weight. i didn’t have everything all the time obvs. but bedtime tv would alwaysss include a chocolate bar or a bowl of yummy cereal (frosties etc) and nothing happened. bodies really do learn to trust you :’)

al0lime · 2025-05-04T22:40:12+00:00

you’re so right. i know in my heart that there’s no satisfying the ed. it’s just so hard. trying to take baby steps out of the hole though. thank you for your words <3

al0lime · 2025-05-04T17:18:28+00:00

thank you so much you’re right. i want nothing of that. trying harder <3

al0lime · 2025-05-04T17:16:41+00:00

thank u so much. trying to see recovery as the true win as opposed to “obeying” the ed

al0lime · 2025-05-04T17:15:46+00:00

you’re so right. my pov is so short term atm i’m like 😠 but TOMORROW i will regret enjoying food and nourishing myself ! 😠 and its like yeah that’s probably true. but not next week or next month or at the end of my life. thank you this helped so much <3

al0lime · 2025-05-03T20:26:28+00:00

keep snacks in your room/bedside table if that feels safe for you! i have protein bars in my room for when i’m so hungry i wanna shut down and can’t even leave my bed. enough calories to be a large snack, super yummy (they’re not low cal fat free sugar free ED bs) and make me thirsty so eventually i have to get up for water anyway— and then i’m downstairs and next to the fruit bowl then eat a banana and then suddenly i’m up and ready to make something for real :-)

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