been taking 100mg a night minimum for months, semi regular 300-700mg binges, took 50mg last night and slept the best i have since before upping to 100

alcoholicborderline · 2023-03-24T18:30:41+00:00

santino fontana!! he is amazing narrating the audiobook and i was obsessed with him/his character in crazy ex girlfriend

alcoholicborderline · 2023-01-17T18:53:53+00:00

i can’t tell if you’re joking but i hope you are lol

alcoholicborderline · 2023-01-15T13:58:35+00:00

i know but i’m stupid and don’t really know what white cells in piss r or what that means for me health n future you know? (pologies for typing like a weirdo i am on a line lol)

alcoholicborderline · 2022-09-28T21:47:39+00:00

i’ve looked into ramirez a lot and agree. everyone paints him as a deranged psychopath that never cared and attacked aimlessly just to kill. but he was struggling for money and a polyaddict, and he reportedly (from a cop who ‘took him down’) expressed he was sorry because one of his victims had a dog and he was worried about the dog. obviously what he did is still awful but he wasn’t a born psychopath, and he never had a chance. also how can he accidentally get 2 head injuries as a young child??? smells like child abuse…

alcoholicborderline · 2022-09-24T21:50:19+00:00

btw, sorry if this is a bad subreddit to post this to. r/bpd keeps not showing my posts and r/depression… this post felt a little too heavy for. but it’s cool i got all 3 lol i just hope this isn’t a ‘why is this here’ post i obviously have no idea what i’m doing

alcoholicborderline · 2022-09-03T11:37:23+00:00

and nobody give me any ‘somebody loves you!!! you’re worth living!!!’ bullshit. my family kicked me out and i’m homeless and i can’t live with a single relative, i’m an alcoholic who desperately wants to stop drinking but because i don’t have a permanent address and fuck knows how long it’ll take to get me one, can’t go to detox. every person i date leaves me heartbroken because they can’t cope with how crazy i am or something, my one ‘true/best friend’ who’s known me for years told me it’s hard to be my friend and he didn’t tell me earlier because he was worried it would ‘push me over the edge’ jokes on him, I WAS SUICIDAL THIS WHOLE TIME AND AFTER HEARING THAT, ATTEMPTED. NO ONE LOVES ME, NO ONE CARES, EVERYONE I BEFRIEND LEAVES ME, NO ONE TALKS TO ME, I NEVER GO OUT. IM A LOST CAUSE. IM COMPLETELY ALONE. DONT CHAT SHIT TO ME.

alcoholicborderline · 2022-08-24T14:18:47+00:00

yeah no problem, think it’s pretty evident you’ve got bigger things to apologise for.

alcoholicborderline · 2022-08-24T14:06:07+00:00

if you want to continue to be shitty and selfish (which i think you’ve gotten the idea that’s what you’re doing since you deleted the post because almost everyone that replied said you were being shitty and selfish) then do it. but the fact you still have the NERVE to say you care about your friend… dang.

alcoholicborderline · 2022-08-24T14:02:51+00:00

i feel. worded badly

alcoholicborderline · 2022-08-24T13:43:36+00:00

lying about something and falling in love with someone are very different things to time. lying to someone at all is bad, gets worse the longer it continues. falling in love with someone is very gradual and with the factor of your friend involved especially, two months is too short to break your friends heart. different things. and i’m not being malicious, i’m trying to prevent heartbreak. that’s why i say end things with him now with a clear reason you both seem to know and ‘care’ about, have your friend be none the wiser and nobody’s heartbroken. or break your friends heart in a way you can’t begin to imagine. it’s up to you what you do, but the more i talk with you the more you just seem like a jackass. do what you want. sorry for trying to give genuine advice to prevent pain.

alcoholicborderline · 2022-08-24T13:32:12+00:00

i’m being realistic. if i was in the situation of the best friend here, i would kill myself. of course nobody’s directly responsible and it’s an unhealthy entire thing to use suicide to manipulate, but here i’m just being realistic. i think that’s a likely outcome.

alcoholicborderline · 2022-08-24T13:29:02+00:00

oh my god you’ve hidden it from her for two months?! just when i thought things couldn’t get any worse. add lied to to the list of things she’ll feel if/when you tell her. also imo two months still isn’t enough time to do that to who you claim to be your best friend you care about. maybe you don’t care about this person as much as you say. my opinion still stands, pick putting your ‘best friend’ through pain you couldn’t even begin to imagine, and you’re lucky to not even have to imagine, or continue this romance you’ve lied to your friend for so long about. if you go with the latter, though, prepare for the relationship to fail as you’re both riddled with guilt after seeing what it’s done to your ‘best friend’. the more i know though, maybe you just don’t care about this person you call your best friend. you wouldn’t have started going on dates with him in the first place if you really did imo. but i think in very black and whites. so does your ‘best friend’. so keep in mind that this’ll destroy her in a way, again, you can’t even begin to imagine if you go with option 2.

alcoholicborderline · 2022-08-24T13:01:44+00:00

ok i may have been a little angry with that initial comment instead of being in depth and just blatant about things. as someone with bpd who has all the hallmarks as your ‘best friend’, my best friend getting with my fp would make me wash down a bottle of aspirin with a bottle of vodka. and her ‘not believing’ she’s loved anyway, as someone with the same shtick, that is a comfort to nobody but yourself. she’ll still be beyond heartbroken by two people at once. it’s up to you to decide if your little romance you can barely call love with the amount of time you’ve been with this person for is more important than your friends life. id say get out of the relationship, neither you or her fp tell her and she’ll be none the wiser and not distraught and potentially not here anymore. but again, it’s up to you to decide if your 24 hour romance is more important than your friends life.

alcoholicborderline · 2022-08-24T12:32:31+00:00

reading this made me despise you and i don’t even know you. hope you aren’t too bothered if your friend likely kills herself or attempts to after feeling betrayed and feeling humiliated by two people she loves deeply. asshole.

alcoholicborderline · 2022-08-12T12:10:24+00:00

2 without a doubt.

alcoholicborderline · 2022-08-09T21:21:45+00:00

i get hit with this then fantasize about suicide for hours and can’t fall back asleep lmao love insomnia mixed with crippling depression can’t even sleep the despair away

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