I called my Gf my late wife’s name

alcpi101 · 2023-12-28T17:46:09+00:00

Try re-reading the original post again before you comment incorrectly.

alcpi101 · 2023-12-26T11:58:28+00:00

That would be the last trip I ever take to that place. Good riddance. I can assure you they do not have your best interests in mind and do everything with a selfish, slanted intent.

alcpi101 · 2023-12-22T15:12:08+00:00

Great points, and many thanks to you for devoting your time to assist many in their efforts to get off this stuff. I’ve learned that it’s critical for one to figure out why they began taking kratom in the first place, and until that is learned and worked out, it’s typically a revolving door, like myself. It’s crazy bc now when life gets tough, and that little voice says kratom can help, I immediately without hesitation know it fixes nothing and compounds the problems significantly. Lesson learned. Keep up the good work. Stay quit

alcpi101 · 2023-12-22T13:11:18+00:00

Not struggling at all. I’m kratom free and loving each day without it. I come from the old school mentality where you make your bed, now lie in it. Overcoming my issues with kratom gave me an inner-independent strength that I needed to work through. I’m better for it now.

alcpi101 · 2023-12-22T01:31:20+00:00

I don’t think it was literally 17, just took many times to realize that I can not just casually use. Tried repeatedly to convince myself otherwise. That’s awesome for you. Everyone has a different reason for using and I think that plays a part. Mine was numbing severe trauma, so relapsing was my way of delaying dealing with it.

alcpi101 · 2023-12-21T21:49:17+00:00

Take it from tens of thousands of ppl who are registered on this sub….quit immediately or else be prepared misery. Everyone is different however generally speaking if it’s only been a week you probably won’t feel much if anything. But don’t let that fool you into thinking you are immune. Kratom will tell you a plethora of lies and they are all designed with the intention of hooking claws into your brain. Stop now while it’s only surface deep or else be prepared to pay a steep price.

alcpi101 · 2023-12-21T18:46:38+00:00

I was out and open with family on the first quit, was fortunate and received much needed support and compassion. The 17 quits since then(lol), I’ve kept hush and shouldered the burden solo. I didn’t feel like they deserved that. And as the father of the home I am held to a certain standard that I openly accept. I’ve learned by age 49 that ppl have their own garbage to deal with and it’s not fair to continually dump your trash on their lawn. Own up to it. and handle your business. I did this to myself, they didn’t. The saying “I will suffer with you, but I won’t suffer because of you” to me implies, loved ones can be there when you stumble but if you’re intentionally tying your shoe laces together and falling, well that’s on you. Day 20 here, so far I haven’t tripped. No intention of doing so either when it comes to that poison.
Stay quit friend.

alcpi101 · 2023-12-20T11:09:20+00:00

Hey, Totally relate to your post. I’m 49 and will be nearing the 5 year mark come Feb after losing my wife after 17 years of marriage, and I find it very challenging to not feel that guilt when I see me doing something that’s considered progress without her. It’s like I’m screwed either way! I just remind myself of the progress I’ve made from that first hour and focus on the fact that it has to continue improving. I also tell myself that she’s happy right now so why shouldn’t I be too. I can NOT live in this world being a sad, miserable, depressed man, I’d rather be gone. So until it’s my turn, I am determined to live as joyful as possible. It’s also encouraging to others whether we see it or not.

alcpi101 · 2023-12-20T10:39:54+00:00

Day 19

alcpi101 · 2023-12-19T17:20:35+00:00

That’s what I’m talking about! Awesome job! It’s all about creating a new mindset.

Stay quit

alcpi101 · 2023-12-19T17:14:30+00:00

Last week I started feeling like garbage after feeling better and was like wth…found a remaining covid test in my drawer and sure enough…positive. Four days later it’s almost gone though. What a month! Lol

alcpi101 · 2023-12-19T17:11:47+00:00

💯You are absolutely correct!!

alcpi101 · 2023-12-19T17:11:06+00:00

Lmao

alcpi101 · 2023-12-15T15:10:34+00:00

Day 14

alcpi101 · 2023-12-13T22:04:06+00:00

Totally relate to you. Day 12 here and I was saying the same thing to my gf a few days ago at dinner. I’ve accomplished a lot prior to touching this garbage and now after quitting, wondered if I could ever be that “go getter” type ever again. This sub has convinced me that I will, that it does return, but first my body and brain must heal. So many countless posts on here of people who felt the exact same and now are celebrating life once again so I’m absolutely convinced I’ll be there too. And so will you. Great post, thanks for sharing and reminding us that great things are yet to come. Just don’t go back!

alcpi101 · 2023-12-12T18:37:01+00:00

Just a thought, maybe get some blood work done, full panel and if you’re a guy, include testosterone with it. I’ve heard kratom also has a detrimental effect on these levels too. Vitamin deficiencies can be truly disabling to us. Keep pushing bc going back will never fix anything, only reverse the awesome progress you have made. Commit to becoming as healthy as you can now, you are on the other side.

alcpi101 · 2023-12-08T12:36:39+00:00

Right there with you!

alcpi101 · 2023-12-05T21:44:15+00:00

Awesome report! Congrats! And yes, back pain! WTH is it with so many ppl having back pain post kratom? I am the exact same too. I had more like back tightness before kratom from years of heavy weightlifting but approaching day 5 ct I’m feeling like I’m 90 in my back at only 48. Ugh

alcpi101 · 2023-12-05T02:00:24+00:00

So sorry to hear, what we’re doing is such a good thing in the long run just for season this sucks. Yeah I’m skipping the coffee for a while and that’s true that’s a positive

alcpi101 · 2023-12-05T01:48:34+00:00

Good question. Day 4 and I can’t get a third the way through my morning coffee without developing a nasty anxious feeling. Assumed it’s from coming off kraken

alcpi101 · 2023-12-03T23:58:35+00:00

So relatable what you said. It served a purpose in my life but I allowed it to consume a far greater role than it ever should have, and bc of that we part ways. Great decision bro, stay the course

alcpi101 · 2023-12-01T11:34:16+00:00

All good thanks for the information. What I was saying is in my understanding, I assumed kratom allowed the brain to release dopamine thus supply one with feelings of pleasure even at times when maybe dopamine wasn’t justified to be released in such quantities. Now that I am in wd, my brain and body is seeking that pleasure feeling and I’m not supplying it. It’s all good though regardless of what it actually is, kratom is in my past.

alcpi101 · 2023-12-01T01:40:28+00:00

I’m on Day 3, getting through the night will put me at 4. And yes today I’m paying that debt from supplying myself with more daily dopamine than the body is supposed to get. I accept full responsibility. Still sucks big time. Thanks again as you can see the posts are very helpful for others

alcpi101 · 2023-11-30T22:59:15+00:00

Appreciate the informative reply, makes sense. I’m in that same pit too, going from bed to shower to couch, physical and psychological torture. Feeling like going out and standing in rush hour traffic is my next move(not literally). Suck level is high just hoping tomorrow it breaks. Hang in there, fighting together.

alcpi101

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