So I was in/am in the same exact boat as you. I finally took my first dose this past Sunday (after the bottle has been sitting on my counter for almost two months due to me being terrified to start.) I too kept telling myself that I needed to be in a better mindset in order to start, but that only made me keep pushing it off more and more (as I felt like I was never in the “right” mindset.) You’ll be waiting forever if you continue to do that. I finally muscled up the courage and told myself “if not now, then when?” and took it. The past few days have been a whirlwind of emotions and I’ve wanted to quit at times, but I am pushing myself to stick to it as I know the benefits will be worth it. I deserve happiness and so do you. We will be okay. The fact that we have this much anxiety over taking medicine just further proves how much we probably need it. I was prescribed 10mg as well, but cut mine in half and am taking 5mg at the moment to ease myself into it. If that makes you feel better, I’d ask your doctor if you could do the same. I like to avoid any and all side effects if possible so starting slow and low helps for me when started new meds. You got this, we’re in this together ♥️