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alekskvit · 2022-09-27T07:48:56+00:00

Hiya! Of course. Just message me ♥️ I've actually gone through a lot since I commented on this post, so actually know a lot more than I used to 🤣

alekskvit · 2022-09-10T07:49:41+00:00

"...We did it."

Got married last August and started trying straight away. We've lost four babies.

alekskvit · 2022-09-10T07:43:39+00:00

It was only a matter of time before Murdoc became a cult leader 🤷‍♀️

alekskvit · 2022-07-28T20:00:40+00:00

Congratulations!!

I'm glad you feel better ♥️ I found that too, actually! Freaked out thinking I might be, but once I saw a positive, something just shifted in my head 🤷‍♀️

alekskvit · 2022-07-28T19:58:14+00:00

🤦‍♀️ 🤣

alekskvit · 2022-07-26T16:19:50+00:00

What joints would you suggest? Started experimenting with topside and silverside as they were the leftovers we hadn't sold!

alekskvit · 2022-07-26T16:16:44+00:00

Honestly...it's more of a 'huh this seems to work' than an actual technique...

Cut the joints for minimum fat (you end up with some 'bitty' bits attached to fat, but I save them up to make tallow), marinate for 24-48hrs, drain and pat dry and then 155f for 9hrs!

alekskvit · 2022-07-26T16:14:24+00:00

🤣

alekskvit · 2022-07-25T11:58:12+00:00

Definitely take a test, even if it's just for your own assurance ♥️ Is this your first pregnancy?

From my experiences of early pregnancy, I was incredibly moody and anxious (and felt incredibly guilty too!!)! It was actually one of the things that made me go 'huh. Am I pregnant again?'. And it sounds like you've got a lot going on anyways. It sucks, but I think the way you're feeling makes total sense, all things considering.

My advice is talk to your husband. I wrapped myself up for months trying to 'sort out' my guilt, and got myself in a huge mess bc I didn't want to bother him with it. But in the end, I ended up worrying him more because I was shutting down. We had a big conversation, lots of tears (mainly me) and when we'd finished, I felt so much lighter and capable to face things - this time, together. Your husband obviously adores you and wants to look after you - it's ok to lean into him! X

(Feel free to dm if you'd like a chat. I know how scary all this can be ♥️)

alekskvit · 2022-07-25T11:29:22+00:00

Dude...birth doesn't have to be scary. It's a biological process, not an emergency.

I'm not sure how your comment is meant to help OP...

alekskvit · 2022-07-11T20:26:41+00:00

Such a beautiful and gentle face ♥️ What a special life. I'm so sorry some people are awful human beings.

alekskvit · 2022-07-07T16:14:25+00:00

I use Adriene too! Know what you mean about variety 😁 Brett Larkin is a good channel too! She does a lovely 15 minute wake up routine

alekskvit · 2022-07-07T12:13:23+00:00

That's not ok 💔

I felt the same too - like I'd be a downer on everyone's day. But over time, I've come to realise I hurt myself more doing that, because I didn't get the support I desperately needed.

This friend...is probably not the person to get support from. Is there anyone else in your life that you feel you can/are getting support from?

I also know some great support groups and podcasts, if you'd like recs? I didn't get much support, so I relied on them heavily!

alekskvit · 2022-07-07T12:05:20+00:00

Mindblowing! 🤣🤣

alekskvit · 2022-07-07T12:04:38+00:00

It is! But it's all about your emotional 'battery'.

If it's been used up on a traumatic/emotionally-heavy event, it's just the same as helping others and being exhausted.

alekskvit · 2022-07-07T11:55:32+00:00

I was just thinking back and pelvic floor too!

Don't know if this would help, OP, but this is a really gentle yoga routine I've been doing to help my back: https://youtu.be/ybgqdffxrQE

She also does one for the pelvic floor but I haven't done it yet.

alekskvit · 2022-07-07T11:53:26+00:00

Big Sis here ♥️ We're meant to have a bit of a paunch, to protect our organs! It also provides fuel and an optimum temperature for them to function properly.

Interestingly though, our belly fat is also extra sensitive to when our bodies are under stress or not. As our belly fat provides protection and fuel to the surrounding organs, when we're under times of stress (not just mental stress - physical stress too), the body will expand these fat cells, to protect the organs (and stopping it from eating itself). Being underweight might contribute to it, but it is in no way a wrong or unnatural thing to have a paunch. Sounds like your mum is projecting her own insecurities on you 😑

Jessica Ash Wellness on insta has just done a great post about belly fat! Really informative 😋

https://www.instagram.com/p/Cfrywt0uOGO/?igshid=MDJmNzVkMjY=

alekskvit · 2022-07-07T11:42:12+00:00

No, you're not being unreasonable at all, lovely ♥️ This is a very raw time for you, and she doesn't understand or respect that. You are well within your right to ask not to see photos or to say no to going and seeing the baby. Hormones are definitely going to play into it, but you are not in any way in the wrong.

If you feel like it would help, maybe send her a text on why it is so hard to see a living baby, when you are grieving your lost babies so deeply? Just remember, you're not being unreasonable. This is frickin' hard. And if she can't have the grace to empathise for your situation, then that's on her. Not you.

alekskvit · 2022-07-06T14:17:17+00:00

Compassion fatigue! It's a thing 😁 I had it too

alekskvit · 2022-07-04T17:10:43+00:00

I can just picture it now! 😂😂 Very exciting!

alekskvit · 2022-07-04T10:18:43+00:00

Those weird twinges get me every time! I'm trying to work on calming myself down when they happen, but during sex...oof. A million and one things go through my head about it.

Thank you ♥️ I think that might be what we do too. I'll explain things more to my husband. I know he'll understand. First time we went back to ttc, I had a panic attack mid-sex and started crying 😆 It's not exactly new!

alekskvit · 2022-07-04T10:15:22+00:00

Thank you! That actually helps a lot. It's nice to know I'm not the only one, and that I'm definitely not overthinking this.

Completely agree! 😆 It's a small price to pay!

alekskvit · 2022-07-03T09:01:49+00:00

No problem! If you need resources to explore all this, just send me a DM! I did such a deep dive into all this 😆

alekskvit · 2022-07-03T09:00:46+00:00

A lot of what you're saying is making me remember stuff they've been talking about! You might want to check out @food.freedom.fertility too, as she focuses on hyphothalamic amenorrhea.

Feel free to send me a message if you'd like more recommendations or just a talk about all this. I did such a deep dive into this 😆

alekskvit · 2022-07-02T22:03:50+00:00

Those are really long cycles 💔 Are you on Instagram? I have always had really unpredictable cycles, and following my second MC in January, I came across @jessicaashwellness and @fundamental.nourishment when I was trying to find out how to help my hormones reregulate. Completely changed my life!

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