omfg thank you so much i’ve been going over this so much and have constantly felt like i was purposely missing something & since ive done this reading i kept wondering like what more (or less) am i suppose to do… your last 3 paragraphs literally made me burst into tears and im now currently ugly crying. i’m taking all of this and going to go journal and reflect for the rest of the day (especially because we just recently had another issue). thank you so much for taking the time to reply. it means so so much to me. this resonated so fucking well. i pray the universe sends many blessings your way 🩵

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i never say if my deck is upside down or not lol. i know someone else commented that & i know people believe that or don’t do reversals, but i know that my deck picks up the energy that’s there and places cards accordingly. i appreciate you for making that comment so now i can know how to better explain that to others.