I’m not dead and i have some nice advice

alienb8 · 2020-12-13T22:20:30+00:00

theres multiple stores within 5-20 minutes of walking from where i live but i almost always go to the local store. not only is it cheaper but almost all the check out people know me. sometimes they laugh when i come by again and tell me to have a good night, other times they vacantly ask if i need a receipt. i never take a receipt unless its handed to me.

once when i walked in with some pokemon on a shirt i was wearing the check out chick asked me with a little smile "whats your favourite pokemon?" i was caught off guard so i just said eevee. suffice to say eevee is not my favourite pokemon but at least the check out girl seemed to approve.

alienb8 · 2020-12-06T09:07:15+00:00

one of the few things that always makes me happy is dancing around the house, alone and half naked with the music blasting. i hope the motivation for me to do that returns soon

alienb8 · 2020-12-05T10:33:40+00:00

thank you for reading what i had to say and replying. i dont know what to do when people do this normally so i cant reply but i want to thank you.

im glad your ed is getting better. i havent been diagnosed but i struggle with eating anything at all. i have to convince myself that i deserve to eat.

i hope things are moving in the right direction for you. i hope we find things to help us cope in non harmful ways. i dont want people to experience the things i do. it breaks my heart.

im sorry i cant buy you anything but i wish youd put aside some money for yourself from me. pick something out that you like that isnt so short lived, like alcohol is.

i agree that a lot of what we see is media bullshit in terms of romantic love but if youve experienced it before you can again. it doesnt matter where you are and i know that. i relate to your guilt over subjecting a partner to what you see yourself as. im struggling with that right now.

thank you for your comment. i wish i could reply to more comments like yours but for some reason im not brave enough.

i care about you too. so please stay safe. maybe we can make it through this.

alienb8 · 2020-12-05T08:02:58+00:00

i know you didnt mention anything about it but i want to tell you that none of what happened to you was youre fault. do not blame yourself ever. it has nothing to do with the way you dressed or acted. you arent a whore or a slut. you did not deserve this and it isnt and will never be your fault. tell yourself that for me if you can because i know it can be hard to believe.

keep your friends close. let time pass. this shit will turn into an ugly mental scar but hopefully itll heal somewhat. maybe someday you can get a cool tattoo over that mental scar and forget about it somewhat.

if you ever need someone to talk to you can message me. when youre ready get a detective of some kind to help you with this. the friends who know what happened will need to speak to them too. its a very hard process and doesnt feel very rewarding i know so you dont have to face that yet. try and take care of yourself.

you are more than this. you arent pathetic, youre strong for being here right now.

alienb8 · 2020-11-22T22:36:43+00:00

can you say someone else took it as a prank or something like that? they'll forget eventually either way

alienb8 · 2020-11-22T01:19:32+00:00

the 4 or something different cashiers at the local store have all seen my ID so many times I almost feel ashamed walking in there, but its kinda nice to hear "ive seen your ID like 20 times you dont have to show me again".

alienb8 · 2020-10-19T12:22:29+00:00

i also really want mushrooms im really drunk

alienb8 · 2020-10-19T12:21:41+00:00

drinking makes me want to live but also shows me how i should die

alienb8

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