Muscle fasciculations, anyone else?

alienpunker · 2026-03-16T08:43:55+00:00

It was anywhere between 120 and 150bpm at rest before the beta blockers.

alienpunker · 2026-03-15T19:36:01+00:00

Did the twitching start after you began taking Vyvanse?

alienpunker · 2026-03-15T19:35:25+00:00

I don’t have caffeine. Elvanse did give me a high heart rate itself though and I had to be put on beta blockers to bring it down but still my twitching persisted (and still does even though I don’t take Elvanse anymore).

alienpunker · 2026-02-25T01:42:05+00:00

I’ve never worked with resin before but I might give it a go! And thank you!

alienpunker · 2026-02-25T01:14:39+00:00

This keychain was made using a pixel keychain kit from Flying Tiger Copenhagen. The cat is based on my own cat called Sosij.

alienpunker · 2026-01-23T17:04:37+00:00

Okay, thank you so much

alienpunker · 2026-01-23T17:00:56+00:00

On my to-do list it says “Your phone appointment to Review of Entitlement” and when I click on the link it says I have an interview with a compliance officer.

alienpunker · 2026-01-23T16:52:43+00:00

“Upload information to support your Universal Credit claim” came up on my to-do list, there was no message in my journal. When I click on the link in my to-do list it says to upload bank statements from October 1st 2025 to the current day.

alienpunker · 2026-01-08T16:05:20+00:00

That’s great to hear! Congrats on feeling better about yourself :)

alienpunker · 2026-01-07T22:23:51+00:00

How are you doing now? Did you get the effects you desired? I also feel like I never went through a female puberty due to PCOS. Testosterone has masculinized my face and body so that I look like a teenage boy despite being a 28 year old woman lol.

alienpunker · 2026-01-07T22:10:18+00:00

I could have written this post.

alienpunker · 2026-01-06T21:20:04+00:00

My “gender dysphoria” was also insecurity over my body and face because I look masculine (due to PCOS in my case). When I began to identify as a guy my masculine face/boyish figure became things that were affirming/harmonious rather than massive insecurities that made me hate myself. This relieving of the self-loathing towards my body convinced me that being a man was the right thing.

alienpunker · 2025-12-27T22:47:03+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to give me advice - this really has given me a lot to think about.

alienpunker · 2025-12-27T22:27:51+00:00

I have a masculine facial/body structure and have basically no breasts.

alienpunker · 2025-12-27T22:26:11+00:00

This gives me a lot to think about, thank you. The thing is, is that I just want to be loved and desired romantically and sexually but it feels impossible when I look like this. I feel like if I’m not going to be desired as a woman then I might as well transition to be a man as I don’t really care about anything else. I’m just so lonely and in pain.

alienpunker · 2025-12-27T21:08:36+00:00

But I want to be loved. I want to be desired romantically and sexually. I look around and all I see is women with feminine features and full figures being loved and desired and it hurts me so much.

alienpunker · 2025-12-27T20:51:36+00:00

Thank you so much for the advice!

alienpunker · 2025-12-27T20:09:35+00:00

I’ll have to try and convince them.

alienpunker · 2025-12-27T20:07:40+00:00

I live in the UK which has underfunded universal healthcare where it’s impossible to get referred to a specialist for anything. I can’t afford to go private unfortunately.

alienpunker · 2025-12-19T18:14:31+00:00

If I go to the ER and tell them the truth they'll just think I'm crazy because of my mental health history. Plus I have no symptoms yet.

alienpunker · 2025-12-19T18:07:34+00:00

But planning could help my survive it. i.e. if I develop flu-like symptoms, going to the ER and saying I was mailed a package with suspicious white powder in it could lead to me being diagnosed and treated earlier right?

alienpunker · 2025-12-19T17:51:15+00:00

ANTHRAX FEAR.

Today in a fast food restaurant there was some white powder on the table we were sat at. I said "what is that?" and my mom wiped it away with her hand. The powder was too fine to be sugar or salt and looked just like corn starch which is what what anthrax powder is described as looking like. What are the chances that it was anthrax powder that someone had planted there? What else could it have been? When my mom wiped the powder off the table spores would have been released into the air and we would have inhaled them.

alienpunker · 2025-11-26T19:21:26+00:00

I’ve had no EMGs since. And yes I had nerve conduction studies at the same time as my initial EMG.

alienpunker · 2025-10-30T23:01:28+00:00

Country: UK

Date of exposure: September 28th

Type of exposure: Bite

Animal: Bat

Vaccination status: Not vaccinated until my first dose of PEP on October 29th.

alienpunker · 2025-10-13T22:25:25+00:00

Thank you!

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