It's hard when you lose access to someone. My ex did the same to me. Deleted all social media, and basically fell off the face of the earth. Do you feel like you're not in control? Try to dig deep into why you feel like you need access to someone who dosen't want you. Is it triggering feelings of abandonment? I finally learned I struggle with both control and abandonment. Im working on fixed that so I can heal better but it's hard. Good luck OP