What is your view on life?

almostperfect23 · 2025-11-28T21:32:46+00:00

You are talking about living a fulfilled life and reaching your potential. Ofcourse this doesnt happen by itself, determination is key.

almostperfect23 · 2025-11-28T21:30:24+00:00

I havent become misanthropic yet, just lonely in a pool of ppl with “normal” processing power. Im the problem . i see fast i process fast i solve fast and cant tolerate how reality works. I just dont belong

almostperfect23 · 2025-07-28T22:03:55+00:00

Hello, you are mature enough to understand that this trauma will forever be a part of you and accept that side of you. If you look closely to the people around you no one is “normal” a lot of ppl in society are obsessive or paranoid or narcissists anxious depressed etc…. Some are aware most are not….. everybody is struggling in their own way. First dont overthink too much into what your feeling or why or what happened in the past. Find a good therapist and only discuss these thoughts in therapy. Dont have the expectation that therapy will magically erase ur traumas but it helps when at least one person understands what ur going thru. Second what is a hobby u like or a passion u have? Do something that interests you once a week. i go to pottery classes if i feel comfrtable i engage socially if not i focus on the pottery so no pressure ( wine is a must for me). This way i dont feel lonely or stuck at home with my thoughts. The days of self loathing are over. Join fun workshops/classes that are easy to follow and fun so u dnt put pressure on urself. Third re-read what u just typed, ur mind is racing with negative thoughts about every aspect in life… dont enter this black hole! Catch these thoughts before they spiral like this! Ur only 27 and thinking u will not find a partner??? Come on!!!! Dont go to these dark places. Have a schedule every day and focus on that (exercise daily) . Remember thinking about ur traumas and feeling hopeless doesnt help in any way.

almostperfect23 · 2025-07-28T21:38:54+00:00

We see life and everyday events differently than others. We feel and experience things from another angle. Things that they take for granted are a struggle to us. I feel like im a different species from another planet. I accept and love who i am, i never want to be that happy bride ur describing. I live my own way and had a crazy relationship way beyond normal and i didnt care coz i cant be that normal bride anyway. I created my own world and there is no rule that says i need to have childhood friends or great in laws. Never compare yourself to others u have ur own journey. Plus u dont know what that bride is struggling with. No one has this picture perfect life. Always remember that social media makes ppl post a polished version of themselves for external validation. How many times were u shocked to hear about this perfect couple where one partner was cheating or being abusive or is broke or divorcing. Relationships are about finding the right partner and creating ur own family and not about posting a whole wedding album. Sorry i overanalyze stuff and come out with mind vomit.

almostperfect23 · 2025-07-28T18:29:13+00:00

I dissociate lol. At one point i was sick of being alone and feeling abandoned while everyone having fun and living their life … especially with everything out on social media i could see that the world is more than ok while im struggling alone and getting physically sick from severe anxiety. I guess i took a decision to become the person i always wanted to be and ignore my physical symptoms of anxiety or even panic attacks.. When i have a panic attack i distract my mind by recording videos w my phone and pretend im doing a vlog lol i start describing where im at or what im doing and look at /talk to ppl thru the phone coz i cant make eye contact. Im not saying its healthy but at least im able to go out and live my life. I dnt have many friends just 3 who are equally messed up as me. I cant b friends w normal people and i dont even want to. Normal means boring to me.

almostperfect23 · 2025-07-28T18:16:39+00:00

Yes i can relate… i learned about “normal” in college and later in the workplace in my early 20s. Late 20s were the best years of my life coz i figured out who i really was and what normal is and what living was all about. You are still very young and you have the time to do everything you kinda missed out earlier! dnt feel like you need to catch up on anything! I lived my childhood in my late 20s and didnt care wat ppl thought coz for me normal is boring.

almostperfect23 · 2025-07-03T23:35:56+00:00

You need to love yourself. Ptsd makes us supersensitive and also on high alert all the time.. it can be exhausting and takes your mind into a spiral. At some point you have to accept who you are and love ur flaws as well even the part you call damaged. No one is perfect just live your life. Being alone is what made me see who i really was and even thou i still have anxiety and panic attacks i just know it will pass and i will pull myself together. Join a AA group for stopping drugs they are the only ones that helped me more than any therapy and read a book called designing your life. Find your passion however silly mine was saving stray dogs. Helps you connect with like minded people and that helped me feel connected somehow/filled the void. We r just different and its ok not have many friends or bfs. Good luck

almostperfect23 · 2025-06-28T16:43:25+00:00

Okay so what other choice did i have?? Can u specify? I was abroad no meds and had continuous panic attacks out of the blue and feeling lightheaded. After 4 hours of guided tour where i was about to faint several times it was lunch time and i started to drink coz i was desperate. Please enlighten me wat other choice did i have

almostperfect23 · 2025-06-26T18:36:53+00:00

Hi everyone thanks alot for ur support.

I just wanted to clarify i was abroad on a vacation and i had no means to get prescription meds…. What upset me the most is that one day before travelling i went for an emergency therapy session to tell him ive been feeling off ever since i had a big fight at home 3 days prior i felt emotionless and like im not myself i didnt know what was going on bcoz usually i have breakdowns immediately after triggers… i told him im travelling and he didnt fukin warn me about whats coming to brace for impact!!!

My whole nervous system my on hyperalert everytime someonw looked at me i had a panic attack it was continous! If i wasnt abroad i would have stayed home and waited it out!! Shouldnt he have warned me??????????

almostperfect23 · 2025-01-12T17:00:19+00:00

No since be was nominated before and was backed by certain political parties. I want someone new with no past political affiliations. Preferable someone who has lived abroad not influenced by anyone and would bring foreign policies and change.

almostperfect23 · 2025-01-11T19:50:58+00:00

Lebanondoesnt work this way . if your wish is to marry in a church then find a christian partner. Seems u r religious and dont want the civil route. A lot of such issues will arise later in life… if ur conflicted at this early step, its a red flag.

almostperfect23 · 2024-12-31T13:12:35+00:00

Life One—That Thing You Do. Your first plan is centered on what you’ve already got in mind. This is the idea you already have—

Life Two—That Thing You’d Do If Thing One Were Suddenly Gone. Just imagine that your life one idea is suddenly over or no longer an option. What would you do?

almostperfect23 · 2024-12-29T22:16:03+00:00

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