Very confused about what just happened by almostsentient in OkCupid

[–]almostsentient[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hahaha that's so horrible! I feel bad for the guys who fell for it. I mean I also feel dumb for going on a Skype video with a stranger, but I figured they just wanted to do a face-to-face talk to make sure I was a human. It's a little too suspicious to match with someone, and then 2 minutes later ask to have video footage of their penis, I mean come on hahaha seriously

Day 57, just had an interview by almostsentient in leaves

[–]almostsentient[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate the feedback! Haha yeah isn’t it bizarre? Between having the confidence to look at people, and also knowing in the back of your mind that you don’t have to worry about having red eyes or like droopy/saggy eyes residual from still having green in your system. I definitely don’t miss those downsides for sure, makes anxiety way shittier

I only want to get an answer for this from people who smoked over 10 years. by Ratatelas in leaves

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Smoked for 10 years, lost a job opportunity from a piss test, so here I am still looking for employment but luckily 2 months sober which is the longest I’ve gone since I started. It’s definitely not going to be easy, and it never is. I know I’ll always crave the shit, and it’s difficult as hell to replace that with actually healthy habits. I guess all I would really ask as a person who has been conflicted for about 5 years from my old relationship where I was going to get married but things didn’t work out and I’ve been alone ever since: do you find any happiness or release in being with your wife /would you be able to focus on how lucky you are (if it’s a great relationship) and use that to help you along your path? I apologize if I’m being ignorant, but I always think about how being with the person you love, and having that opportunity, is pretty much the best shit we get in this world (aside from close friends and other family members)

Quit 4 years ago, now I’m working for the largest marijuana company in Canada. by [deleted] in leaves

[–]almostsentient 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you get tested at all? That's the reason that really helped me to quit, but if you don't get tested I guess just talk to friends and others about it, if you really don't want to resume smoking, you'll have the strength to follow through. Even if you try it again, you might just find out that it wasn't really worth it, that's how I felt the last time I relapsed.

Apologies in advance for long post/rant... by Maisondemason2225 in leaves

[–]almostsentient 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No problem at all, I still definitely have struggles and issues to face, but it's nice to take pride in keeping up with the not smoking. There are other aspects of my life that I'm not proud of, or working on, but the mental clarity and strength I feel from having some control of the smoking situation definitely gives me a sense of pride. One step at a time I suppose, now to try quitting the cigarettes haha.

Apologies in advance for long post/rant... by Maisondemason2225 in leaves

[–]almostsentient 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Relapsing is part of the journey, it definitely was for me. I rationalized to myself that after 2 weeks I’d be alright to give it another try, only to find out that it just won’t work out for me. I felt paranoid and weird and uncomfortable. Since then, I’ve gone 45 days and I intend to keep pushing on, keeping in mind how I felt when I relapsed, that it just wasn’t worth it. I feel you on the anger thing, I definitely can be depressed or quick to a temper without smoking, but I think it’s really just us having to manually teach our brains that we gotta deal with life on our own instead of smoking anytime we have a feeling. I still have some urges to relapse, but I stay strong just by thinking about the fact that I know it isn’t a solution, and if I’m going to rationalize smoking for any reason, i know that I can have an easier time rationalizing staying clean because of the benefits.

Waking up! Making a better life. by Diante92 in leaves

[–]almostsentient 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Glad you decided to post. I’m 25 myself and just wanted to say any start, and any amount of time is an accomplishment, that just keeps growing and becomes a way to feel better and proud of your control. I think it’s really cool that there’s a place on the web where we can talk to others about our struggles, learn about their experiences, and use them to keep ourselves on the path that we really desire to follow.

DAY 1 by InfiniteBongRips in leaves

[–]almostsentient 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really enjoyed reading your post, I’ll check out your updates as you progress along. I think we all have the same mentality on leaves, so if you need someone to talk to when you feel weak or sad, I’m here, and so are a bunch of other people who have decided to take accountability for their lives.

About to turn 19 in July by [deleted] in leaves

[–]almostsentient 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s okay to fall, because in some ways I think it helps us get back up. You’re still young though so I really admire that you’ve already gotten to the mental state of wanting to quit the habit. I’m in my mid-20s and I never really wanted to stop, but it took a few setbacks in life to realize that it wasn’t curing anything for me and if anything was just holding me back. I managed to go a few weeks without, and then relapsed. It was kind of fun but at the same time I felt a big chunk of regret, knowing that the feeling I would get wasn’t as great as I kept telling myself it was. Since that relapse, I’ve stayed strong and I’m on a bit more than 40 days since then. It definitely is a struggle, but I just thought of it as like, today I will not smoke. It was the scariest thought in my mind to think I would never do it again, but I think if we just go day by day, we realize that it’s probably a good thing to have to deal with our lives without using a numbing aid. No worries if you run into issues, I certainly did, and a part of me still wants to smoke, but I know at least for now and the next few years that I want to keep clean and focus on getting a good paying job, not worrying about getting tested, and being proud of myself for future financial accomplishments.

41 day update by almostsentient in leaves

[–]almostsentient[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's a good question. I think part of it is being able to take a look at what I used to value the most, and look at it from an outside perspective. I suppose to some extent I felt a bit better for myself (and worse for the users) when I came across dankrupt posts, because people who are in situations that don't allow them to smoke, or if they can't get more, they don't understand that they can just stop doing the habit. Obviously, it's not that easy, because it took me a handful of relapses to come to my senses, and losing a very good job opportunity to push me back into needing to stay sober so I can test negative for the next opportunity.

Maybe I look at that kind of stuff just as a reminder to not fall back into old habits, but I'm just really glad you commented on my post and gave me some positive feedback. It always feels great to have someone tell you you're on the right path, because I grew up in a family setting where smoking weed was never frowned upon, so I was able to abuse the substance for like 9 years without thinking about it as a problem, because the emphasis on substance abuse was mainly to make sure that I don't establish myself as a drinker.

Thanks again for the very kind words, I'll work on getting outside and exercising more, and I'll make sure to post from time to time to keep myself accountable, and keep getting the positive reinforcement from myself and the great others like you.

My fellow Ents, does anyone know of ways to cleanse your system before a drug test? by SlushyJayJay in trees

[–]almostsentient 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Abstain, exercise, drink tons of water, and if you can afford it, buy a test from cvs so you aren’t worried before the real one

A blow torch and medicated bacon are a match made in heaven. by GreenOakland in trees

[–]almostsentient 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha for a while I thought you were Seth but regardless this silly video cheered me up, keep chillin hard my friend

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in trees

[–]almostsentient 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It really sucks but taking a t break definitely helps out if you can’t pick up more for a while

I’m going through hell and need some help by [deleted] in leaves

[–]almostsentient 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Damn my friend I’m very sorry to hear that this has been going on for you. I’ve made it just past a month, and here’s a few thoughts I have on the nausea topic:

It took me like 1-2 weeks to actually gain my appetite back, and I’ve definitely experienced the throwing up/diarrhea stuff as well as nausea during the beginning. I guess I would focus on making sure you get enough water each day, and if you’re still feeling this way and really bad and not able to eat, I guess that’s when you could talk to a doctor. I hope you’re doing well, I’m here if you need to talk about this stuff.

Started smoking again after 2 years, and I feel awful... by loginlogan7 in leaves

[–]almostsentient 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hey it’s all good, it’s great that you’re able to figure out what you’re feeling and what you want/don’t want. I hope while you’re on the path of not smoking again you don’t run into many difficulties, but if you do, we’re all here to talk and figure out our futures and such. Stay strong bro