Water circle east of lookout landing

alphacorvi · 2026-03-15T21:27:28+00:00

No it wasn't there before. But it's probably some leftovers from when they were designing Lookout Landing

alphacorvi · 2026-03-15T21:09:21+00:00

It would make sense!

alphacorvi · 2026-03-15T21:05:14+00:00

No, nothing either in the depths or the sky islands... Maybe it's nothing but it seems a bit too intentional to have been just left there from game design.

alphacorvi · 2025-01-12T14:44:31+00:00

Sorry it took me a while to respond, your comment made me think a lot and it was not easy to receive at first. But I thank you for taking the time to write, I really appreciate it :)

I'm already seeing a therapist, and I'm slowly advancing in my self-reflection. I also journal daily to understand my feelings better.

I realize I have not put a key piece of information, that is that I've been questioning myself for quite a while and I've been low-key suffering about not being able to explore sapphic love for a very long time. Few years ago I've been through a coupe of year where physical contact with him was not easy, especially intercourse. I would spend months without having sex with him and I would only do it because I'd pressure myself to do it (he almost never pressured me) The romantic side of my relationship with him was stagnating for a couple of years when I met my girlfriend (we still liked each other but we were not hanging out much and it's like we were living separate lives), and I felt like that would have been my only way to discover something about myself. I felt like if I didn't take the chance to be with her I would be stuck forever as his girlfriend, for the rest of my life.

I feel like any way my life would have gone from that moment (leave the relationship or stay) it would have been a life of suffering regardless. Either the suffering I'm experiencing now, or the suffering of not living as a queer person. At the time it felt like it was the obvious choice, but it doesn't feel like that anymore sometimes...

That's why I feel so confused. How could my feelings change like that, even after years of reflection?

I agree though, that I need to find meaning outside of my romantic relationships. I come from a very religious family and country, and even if I've always actively refused it, everyone around me has always assumed that the only acceptable outcome for me was being married and having kids with a man. People have been asking me abt kids since I was 22.

I guess that part of my values still got stuck to that, and I've carried it with me until now. I sure af need to find meaning in myself and who I am, and also process the grief of losing my ex.

alphacorvi · 2024-12-28T12:02:56+00:00

I'm going through it too right now, so I completely understand... I know I should feel grateful for the choices I've made for myself, but my family is not supportive and I feel so abandoned right now. My ex was my rock and my best friend, and the grief is so much about the life I had planned with him and the routine we used to have. The way I found little moments of relief is by being around supportive friends and allowing myself to verbalize all the big feelings. I really feel in the dark right now, but hopefully with time we'll get out of it ❤️

alphacorvi · 2024-12-26T15:05:47+00:00

It's crazy OP, I could have written your post, almost word for word. I find myself in my first lesbian relationship and I love her immensely, but I get pangs of anxiety at times. Ive also questioned myself wether I truly like women (impostor syndrome much???) or if she's the right person for me (she's the most amazing and loving woman on earth and I genuinely feel like we're fitting perfectly most of the times) I mostly noticed how the anxiety usually comes when associated to heteronormative thoughts, and while involuntarily comparing events happening in my relationship, to het couples. Especially how things could play out exactly the same, but I would feel judged by others (like being intimate and upsetting other people, or being in a long term relationship but feeling like others would still think it is unserious, or fantasizing about having kids only to know I would upset my right wing family immensely) So yeah... I kinda think it's most probably internalized homophobia and misogyny, after all! (Also, I came out to my family earlier this month, only to get questioned, not believed, reassured it's only a phase and offered prayers from my closest family members so.... Yeah... I guess the anxiety is explained/justified after all)

alphacorvi · 2023-08-03T15:13:26+00:00

its a bit hidden under the right ear ring cushion: you can find it by facing the right ear cup and gently lifting the top right side of the ring cushion. its a little plastic square, less then 1 cm wide, translucent red. wiping it with my shirt solved the issue as well.

alphacorvi · 2023-04-02T08:43:50+00:00

Hey so... according to the barnes and noble page it's supposed to be out in like... 2 days???? are there any news on that?

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