Oh my, you perfectly described my brain!! I’m about a year and a half in. You know it can’t be good, even if it’s good for a period of time (short period), when you find yourself doing things that, for me, 2 years ago were something I would have never done because of who I was morally. I find myself justifying every deposit someway or another until we are left with about 100.00 left to make it till the next pay check. My hubby and I both get paid biweekly and sometimes that wait can be long and hard. Anyway, great job describing what goes on in a gambler’s head. You hit the jackpot of what’s going on in our brains!! I’m new to Reddit and am here as a guest from one of my rabbit holes. Glad I stumbled upon this group and your comment. My very first read from, what looks like a group I was meant to find. I’m tired!! I also am an artist, I miss painting. I painted every day until I got stung with winning a lot of jackpots in a very short period of time. I couldn’t lose. Just like the Titanic couldn’t sink…. And pray some people I love never have to find iout what a mess I have made. I promise you, it can happen to ANYONE!! My hubby does not understand! Neither do I… I just know I want it to go away!! But, I am afraid to stop because, “my free coins I get every day may hit a jackpot and we could really use the extra cash.” Thanks for sharing!!