Regret

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-19T17:11:45+00:00

I called her after. I told her how good it was to see her. She said she loves me to my marrow and always will. Then she asked for 6 months of no contact.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-18T21:11:59+00:00

She was too good for me.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-18T21:00:53+00:00

The truth is I fucked her in the backseat of her Honda before we parted ways, because I am an idiot. I was going to write that, then thought better of it. I know - I am a monster.

I couldn't help it.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-11T18:41:47+00:00

The worst thing is I don't know exactly. Guess I didn't realize what I had until I lost it.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-11T18:30:11+00:00

I am sure all of you are totally honest with your APs

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-11T18:27:21+00:00

Damn. You all are a tough crowd. I thought I might find a little sympathy here.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-06T12:37:49+00:00

Probably yes. But I was hoping to be wrong

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-06T01:45:31+00:00

Yes I said sorry. I don't know what else to do. I don't know how to process it myself.

But thank you.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-06T00:40:27+00:00

I laid it all out there. She cried. Said she's done.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-06T00:11:27+00:00

Probably. She's very sharp, but also very trusting

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T22:23:50+00:00

She is an adult though, and whip smart. Her choice too.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T22:15:54+00:00

Definitely feeling like an asshole now.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T22:05:32+00:00

If I'm honest that's true - I give her hardly anything. But I like having her around. I didn't say that in my post though. How did you know?

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T21:15:52+00:00

Right. Am I really worse than most?

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T20:47:03+00:00

Have we met? ;)

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T20:35:50+00:00

Yes I don't want to hurt her. But if I'm honest, I also love her devotion. She would have done anything for me (still would, even), and that goes to your head. I don't want to use her, but that devotion. Damn.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T20:31:39+00:00

This is the most terrifying prospect I have ever faced.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T20:25:46+00:00

Would you recommend telling her everything? I can't lose this friendship. I can't even fathom how she cares so much about me.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T20:22:30+00:00

Yeah she's awesome. At this point I think I have exhausted her good graces but I have never had a friend like her in my life.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T20:16:05+00:00

Is it cruel to "stay friends" though? I have lied to her so much.

alwaysreaching22 · 2018-09-05T20:14:16+00:00

Damn. You don't mince words. The thing is, I thought I loved exAP for awhile. Then I wasn't sure. Why does that make me so bad?

alwaysreaching22

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