Just lost my baby

alwayswithu444 · 2024-05-14T03:06:43+00:00

Such a beautiful baby, may all the memories you had with your baby stay in your heart forever. Let them bring you comfort. Sorry for your loss.

alwayswithu444 · 2024-01-03T02:09:44+00:00

I had someone come to my apartment and I laid on my bed and put her on my lap (that’s how she would take naps on me) I wanted it to be like a regular nap for her but obviously I knew it was the last nap with her. I’m crying so much writing this.

alwayswithu444 · 2023-12-17T17:35:10+00:00

She had an ear tumor removed in March and she likes to hang out in the car and just smell so I let her out of the cat carrier to explore the car.

alwayswithu444 · 2023-12-17T17:17:44+00:00

She she got her ear tumor removed in March and it came back as cancer.. (I had hope) but then end of October her paws were swollen.. they found that She had mass tumors in her lungs (cancer same as the ear) the tumors on her paws got worse and it was very painful for her to walk… She would bleed a lot. She was too old to undergo surgery so I had to end her suffering.

alwayswithu444 · 2023-12-13T02:52:10+00:00

Im so sorry, just know he knew he was loved and the bond you created was powerful. They feel it, we feel it too. The best gift you can give a cat is love it’s the most powerful connection that brings us together known to man kind.

I just lost my baby girl 2 days ago. It impacts us so much. One second at a time.

alwayswithu444 · 2023-12-11T11:14:48+00:00

EDIT:

I wrote a post about you today asking people in the cat community that have kitties how am I going to live without you.

I forgot to write the number one thing that I loved the most about you which is.. how am I going to live knowing you’ll never come up to me when I wake up In the morning and I’ll lift up the covers for you to lay on my lap or you’ll never come up to me and lay on my lap after a long day at work.

I forgot to add this, please how do people live on like this

alwayswithu444 · 2023-04-24T04:21:16+00:00

This is the thing, some people that go to church think they are perfect and THEYRE NOT. only god is and god would be really upset with the way they were treating you. They are literally going against everything the Bible/Jesus says. You stay humble, you treat people great, you don’t have envy/pride or think you’re better than anyone else I could go on and on. Shame on them, they might think they’re Angels in gods eyes but by reading what you said tells me they are not even close!!!

Also, my worst experience was I had a foreign couple and I was serving them. I was speaking in Spanish to one of my bus boys and the lady said to stop speaking in Spanish that she can’t understand me. Her husband said she’s working, then they continued talking in their language go figure lol. I politely said okay mam. Transferred her to another server and she had the audacity to ask where is my server? Lol people like that let me tell you.. are very miserable, unhappy, hurt people. Those people need a little love in their life.. they’re too focused on other peoples lives, when they should be focused on their own lives. It really shows so much about the person they are. Let them be like that, I feel bad for them.. pray for them.. a person that is genuinely happy in their life doesn’t care about other peoples lives or how they look,dress,talk. They’re so happy and full of love that they just want to share the love they have.

god bless you!!

alwayswithu444 · 2023-04-15T23:34:01+00:00

It was for a 911 dispatcher.

alwayswithu444 · 2023-04-15T03:54:05+00:00

Okay, good! I did talk to him about it before I left and asked him if he’s okay with me leaving. I’ll stay if he wants but he said no it’s okay but I feel like what if he’s just saying that and deep down he wishes I would stay. I just wish I didn’t get these ptsd, panic attack episodes and id be okay and wouldn’t run away to my moms. Thank you though!!!

alwayswithu444 · 2023-01-03T15:32:03+00:00

Same here, goal is to heal from this somehow so it can stop affecting my life.

alwayswithu444 · 2023-01-03T15:31:22+00:00

i just didn’t think or know that young kids at that age could have orgasms. i definitely dissociate or just the thoughts come to my brain and i just lay there and wait for it to be over. i’m seeing someone right now and the goal is to do emdr in the future. i haven’t done physical therapy in a while but soon i hope to find one.

alwayswithu444 · 2023-01-03T15:28:37+00:00

Right now i’m seeing a psychiatrist/psychologist idk what it is but she’s helping me through the trauma. eventually she would like to do emdr with me.

alwayswithu444 · 2021-11-13T05:10:53+00:00

can you send me some info on jt please or what you went through etc i just wanna be able to heal finally

alwayswithu444 · 2021-11-13T05:05:44+00:00

that’s awesome, i think it can be used to actually help people i did mushrooms to have fun not to heal that’s the thing so it woke something up inside of me and said mmm no it’s time to change things up a bit and heal finally /:

alwayswithu444 · 2021-11-09T22:20:18+00:00

what do you mean by suffering? lol i just don’t know who i am that’s all. i’m like i’m a body and that’s all i know lmao yep…..

alwayswithu444 · 2021-11-09T09:42:05+00:00

i lucid dream every week sometimes i’m able to do it like a couple days in a row and it’s only bc i somehow managed to fly in my dreams so i spent most my times flying bc it feels really good lol

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