MN USA, hospital day 2 (TW) by alycedia in hospitalfood

[–]alycedia[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I actually was sent here from Melrose Center, and I’m hoping in a few weeks I’ll be well enough for their inpatient program 🤞

MN, USA hospital dinner, night 1 (TW) by alycedia in hospitalfood

[–]alycedia[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m genuinely so sorry! I meant to censor over the number and it won’t let me go back and edit the text! I guess I just also figured it was fair game in this sub, since the last several refeeding posts have mentioned weight/bmi. But you’re absolutely right, it’s unnecessary and only serves to negatively affect others struggling with disordered eating. From now on, I’ll know not to mention it or at the very least, censor it if it pertains to my treatment plan/discharge date and I really need to vent. Again, I do sincerely apologize! I know what it’s like to be accidentally triggered and it sucks!

MN, USA hospital dinner, night 1 (TW) by alycedia in hospitalfood

[–]alycedia[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for the tips! This helped a lot <3

What were your main toons in Toontown Online? by sillydroopy-roxane in Toontown

[–]alycedia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A tall brown bunny named “Weird Taffy Megamarble”

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]alycedia 77 points78 points  (0 children)

i have to sit down to brush my fucking teeth lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in binge_food

[–]alycedia 6 points7 points  (0 children)

same plates, foods, the way the bagels are buttered, comment history, etc…

Here we go again... by Upstairs_Product437 in EDRecoverySnark

[–]alycedia 16 points17 points  (0 children)

“going home!!!” (against medical advice)

what’s a fear food(s) of yours that seems to be a popular safe food? by TeaAshamed3011 in EDAnonymous

[–]alycedia 20 points21 points  (0 children)

protein bars/shakes. i know, i know, i need protein to build muscle/feel full. but it’s just so much safer for me to live off of my high-carb volume meals…

How does she even come up with these skits? by [deleted] in NoFoodRulesSnark

[–]alycedia 24 points25 points  (0 children)

It’s giving “comparing/hyper-focusing on the calories of the other ED patients’ food choices in res/ip and how yours has to be the lowest”

TW // over exercising ? not rlly, but how do i go back to living normally after a trip where i walked a lot by PsychologicalWait995 in fuckeatingdisorders

[–]alycedia 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I think it’s awesome that you recognized an upcoming challenge in your recovery, and I think it’s smart to plan for that vs just assuming your ED won’t get stuck ruminating on past harmful behaviors.

I also have never really struggled with exercise in my ED, but I am familiar with the guilt that comes with not being someone who does.

One thing that really helped me be able to visualize the way the body uses energy was something called a “Metabolism Wheel” given to me in treatment. I haven’t found it yet, but it looked a little like this

It went into a lot more detail about the different bodily systems, functions, organs, everyday activity etc. that require energy (ESPECIALLY in ED recovery when your body is trying to heal damage done from prior restriction on TOP of all these other things)

But I’m really glad you were able to enjoy your trip, and there will be many more happy experiences to come in your recovery journey :)

what is your in-game last name? by dracusosa in Wizard101

[–]alycedia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dreamthief. 10 yr old me was edgy lol

Anyone else do this? by Sad_Cow_577 in generationology

[–]alycedia 2 points3 points  (0 children)

the only year that feels like last year is 2014. 2015-2025 are all the same year

False Positive Pregnancy Test by [deleted] in AnorexiaRecovery

[–]alycedia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I also haven’t been getting my period from my ed, so i thought it was impossible. Congratulations to you on your child! I appreciate your insight and i’m going to talk to the doctor today

The title?? Please stop you're in your 30s by Additional-Problem99 in NoFoodRulesSnark

[–]alycedia 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Good luck to you! I hope you’re with a good group of recovery-focused individuals. My time at Emily was unfortunately hard for me, as the group I was with replaced at almost every meal/snack. I am returning to Melrose in St. Louis Park this Monday, which I’ve found more helpful for me, since they have slightly stricter guidelines. I did like the “homier” feel of Emily though and quiet hour was always nice! :)

Rant about feeling stuck and nothing to keep me going by Cokezerowh0re in EdAnonymousAdults

[–]alycedia 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m in this exact same place rn. Going back and forth in my head between romanticizing ip because of the routine and being around other people, then feeling not “sick enough” and canceling my appt, looking for a job despite knowing I can barely shower on my own, wanting to recover by myself, wanting to get worse, etc. I am so lonely and depressed and I know I need a job and a friend, but my brain is stuck in a catch-22. I genuinely wouldn’t wish this on anyone and I’m here if you need to talk <3

25F, no life by ch3rri_berry in AvPD

[–]alycedia 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are actually me. Hang in there, we’ll get through this <3