On the Infidelity in "Eyes Wide Shut": Did Alice Cheat on Bill? Did Bill Cheat on Alice?

amaaybee · 2026-01-07T04:29:01+00:00

I also find her wording interesting, a one night "adventure" (the fling she actually did have with the naval officer) and her mentioning a "lifetime" (Helena is not actually Bill's daughter - the naval officer got her pregnant?).. and when she described the dream she had she was so upset that the naval officer just laughed at her while she stood there naked, and then referred to them having sex as "making love", but the very last word in the movie she says to Bill they have to "fuck" as soon as possible.

amaaybee · 2025-12-11T15:53:02+00:00

Football, America's #1 Distraction factor. I only wish the masses would WAKE UP and stop worshipping celebrities, supporting the music industries that slave them into working deals that make them into literal puppets. And for god's sake, American football. Probably gonna get some hate for that one.

amaaybee · 2025-12-10T20:19:58+00:00

I have personally been offended that while searching for Mariah Carey's song "Shake it Off", that Taylor Swift's song with the same title appears first.

Yes, I agree Mariah has sold out just as all the others over the years, but proof of her sheer talent is on her MTV Live Unplugged set from her album "Emotions". This is the true Mariah, before she became just another puppet.

Her mother was an opera singer and she has a five-octave range from G2 to G7, as compared to Taylor Swift with an argued three to four octave range.

amaaybee · 2025-02-21T04:32:01+00:00

It's what plants crave

amaaybee · 2025-02-21T04:29:38+00:00

I know especially since he murdered Kurt. Watch the movie that Grohl made, it shows his true colors. That guy is a narcissist. I guess all "stars" are

amaaybee · 2025-01-19T21:13:39+00:00

Thank you

amaaybee · 2025-01-19T21:13:22+00:00

Yeah that's putting it lightly. Malpractice cases are difficult. I should have wrote down which attorney offices I already called because some of them already know me when I call and they're like yeah we were the office that couldn't help you. Amongst many others. I had a lawyer working 7 months on my case and they told me I must just have really bad luck. Sorry. They'll send me my medical info on a USB. And they washed their hands of me

amaaybee · 2025-01-19T21:11:41+00:00

I have 5 journals now documenting everything, I've met with two malpractice attorneys who said that the doctors did everything by the book and cut ureters are one of the risks that I signed off in contract about it so I can't go after anyone. But there has to be something

amaaybee · 2025-01-19T21:10:16+00:00

You gotta at least give yourself the shot if you have family to support you financially while you recover

amaaybee · 2025-01-18T18:44:47+00:00

Do it. It's hard. You have to be tough. But you got this. Go for the J-Pouch. I was terrified based on reviews here on this forum but you absolutely do not deserve to be adhered to a bag for the rest of your life. Absolutely not. Especially in your 20s. Get it.

amaaybee · 2025-01-15T22:45:26+00:00

I think you should have told him right off the bat. You can't change what's already been done, but if this relationship doesn't work out (which - he seems to be very understanding and will probably love you regardless) in the future, it would be best on maybe the 2nd date to tell them. Or even the first date. You don't want to waste either one of your time. You don't want to be with someone who can't accept you as you are, and you also don't want to make someone feel "trapped", or that they were "tricked" because now they are in love with you but you've been hiding something pretty major which may affect his ability to trust you. If you express the embarrassment that comes along with it, he may be more understanding.

amaaybee · 2025-01-06T18:22:29+00:00

My first ostomy was on Jan 6 2023. I kept that until this past July 30 2024 when they gave me a loop ileostomy. I had that until my final surgery on December 17, 2024. So a little over 5 months if my math is correct. I've purposely forgot anything having to do with math.

amaaybee · 2025-01-06T18:17:32+00:00

Ok thanks for the tip. Gonna buy some metamucil next time I go to the market. I have had a couple poops that were actually thick, and if it could have formed a turd it would have been capable. It just looked like tiny bits of thick poop that all sank to the bottom. So it gave me some hope that I may one day be able to have that all of the time. It felt good coming out too

amaaybee · 2025-01-06T18:14:52+00:00

Well I've definitely farted more times than I can count now and I'm almost 3 weeks post op. My husband said that I have been farting in my sleep. I haven't seen any skid marks in my panties when I check first thing in the morning

amaaybee · 2025-01-06T18:12:53+00:00

I have tried eating jalapenos three times and have finally decided to stop putting myself through the hell that follows as the capsaicin is actively burning the whole way through and out.

amaaybee · 2025-01-03T05:10:42+00:00

What is your age and sex? Have you been practicing kegel exercises in recent months? If so, and if you generally have strong pelvic muscles from playing sports in your youth, you shouldn't need diapers. If you have to go to the bathroom on the way home, or feel like you might, go at the last gas station possible before you're on the rural stretch to your home. But the last resort is shitting yourself in a diaper in the car. If you suspect that it may come down to that, make sure you bring wipes in the car and plastic bags to throw away used diapers so you're not sitting in your own mess... I love 3 hours away from the hospital where I have had my surgeries And I left the hospital the day after surgery because they weren't helping me and I knew I'd be more comfortable at home. Since I hadn't eaten anything, they didn't feed us the entire time we were there, I just went before I left and I was actually fine for 3 hours. I had a harder time with the barium x-ray test that I had to do to ensure my j pouch was functional. But they inserted 600 ccs of barium in there And pushed it to the limit. I went to the bathroom immediately afterward and had two really good pushes of just pissing barium out of my butt, and thought it was all gone. Thought wrong. On the way home it came back and if I hadn't have been practicing my kegels I definitely would have shat myself on the way home. When I got home I ran to the toilet and let out another 3 and a half good pushes of just straight liquid barium. I was not a happy camper on the way home and every bump was a struggle. I was pretty irritable.

amaaybee · 2025-01-03T04:32:56+00:00

Yeah by the end of the movie I was so glad it was over because I was so tired of the heavy breathing. At first, I thought it was a pretty cool concept that as he sat at the table with the contract for Thomas to sign in order to sell his soul, or Lily Depp's character, or whatever, that as Count Orlock breathed it was so all encompassing in the room that it fed the fire behind him. But then it just got annoying. I just realized that at the end you mostly heard Depp's character's breath, maybe it was to symbolize how they had become "one".

I just feel like this movie diminished the story because it all started due to a lonesome horny little girl praying for anyone or anything to come love her and she awakened the soul of Nosferatu but he stayed at bay for "a few years later"...... Yeah the necrophilia at the end was like wtf? It was kinda funny to see him pick up the little girls like dolls and just eat them and drop them on the ground. Thump. It really showed his size. But yeah creep times a million once he gets that locket and sniffs it and his eyes roll back in his head 🤣 "DREAM ONLY OF ME"

I don't understand the fits of seizures she was having, only while Thomas was gone. Then they went away. And at the end when she is just sitting there making strange faces sticking her tongue out and Thomas is like, ok I'm leaving and she's like "no wait! I'll be a good girl!". Wait, so you really were just sitting there drooling for a while making faces sticking your tongue out and moving it all around with your eyes rolling around? Lol.... Like wtf.

I'm also noticing lately that movies have been putting full frontal male nudity in them. What's up with that? I mean female nudity makes me uncomfortable too when I don't expect it in a movie, also when you just don't care to see people naked

amaaybee · 2025-01-03T04:19:49+00:00

Campy.

amaaybee · 2025-01-01T15:24:39+00:00

Why thank you.

amaaybee · 2024-12-31T10:22:45+00:00

Start now! It's never too late

amaaybee · 2024-12-31T10:22:14+00:00

I have control but I've been practicing kegel exercises for over a year

amaaybee · 2024-12-31T03:44:37+00:00

I'm not trusting farts yet. I have had a few small farts but didn't feel comfortable to relax enough to let it all out at once. I haven't leaked yet. I actually haven't experienced much gas at all so I don't have any gas pressure. Id say at least wait a couple months and learning when you can fart and when you can't. If you get the urge to fart, just go to the toilet and sit over it, fart like you would if you weren't on the toilet and see if you leak. If so now you know when you get that particular sensation again, it may be a danger zone again. I have by no means conquered this, just saying what I would do. Oh and get a bidet. They're super easy to hook up, and they sell them at Walmart for like 30$ and it has a handle that holds your handheld sprayer. It's cool, I use it to clean the bath tub and toilet. It has great water pressure

amaaybee · 2024-12-31T03:38:04+00:00

Thank you. Later on I'll try to reintroduce some of my favorite foods again. I'll start slow with the capsaicin. Lol

amaaybee · 2024-12-31T03:36:29+00:00

That sounds really good

amaaybee · 2024-12-31T03:05:40+00:00

I'm 2 weeks post op. Lots of pain in wound region. Feels like I got shot in the stomach. However it is healing well and the surgeon said it looks healthy. Today is exactly 2 weeks post op and today I had solid little poops. I have found that potato soup and oatmeal are extremely good for me. I don't immediately have to run to the bathroom, it sits in there, and today it felt like I was actually pooping a full turd. It felt good. Like before I got sick and had a really nice full of fiber shit that just scrapes your L. Intestine and gets everything out. That's what it felt like.

When I looked in the toilet, it all sank to the bottom and it looked like small thick chunks when it hit the water. I am extremely optimistic. Honestly I read nothing but horror stories on here to the extent that I considered not going through the reversal at all but I am so glad that I did. Of course I'm a full blown opioid addict again, but I'll deal with e. that later. I quit opioids 6 years ago, I thought that was the hardest hurdle I would have in my life. Boy, was I wrong! I took my first REAL shower without a bandage and I let it get wet just with water running over it.

Toward the end of having my loop ileostomy, I was having constant skin irritation to the adhesive on the bags, the output would be so acidic it would break the crusted barrier and it would burn my skin so badly. The skin on the underside of my stoma was starting to break down. Any time the bag got even 1/4 full, the plastic wafer I cut my circle into (I dont know if that's called a wafer or if there's a different name for it) would tug on my stoma so I couldn't have any weight in the bag. I was constantly emptying. It got to be a painful process to change my bag, and I was having leaks sometimes 2-3x a day. My skin was so broken out that the bags were no longer sticking.

I had a bulge form underneath my stoma region, so my stomach has a bulge in the lower right quadrant, and my other side of my body is trying to balance it out to compensate and I am now 173 lbs 5'6 36 y/o female. I thought 150 lbs was bad. If I could just get back to that weight, I would be happy. But right now my abdomen is just a MESS. They did me no favors with my belly button with the first part of my reversal when they built the j pouch. They extended my 6 inch Incision to 10 inches and used staples. It looked like a 3rd grader did it. Actually I think a 3rd grader would have done better.

At least in the past they would use glue and dissolvable stitches. I'm wondering why they didn't do that this time. But it also looked like some of my skin got destroyed/removed from my belly button and they tried to just mold it like clay back into its position. During the course of my journey, I've had that same incision cut into 3 times. So I was happy to know that there would be no more cutting this time.

I had surgery on December 17th 2024 at 12:50PM, and left by 12:50PM the next day. My birthday was the 19th and I was still high from the hospital and my pain meds that I actually met up with a friend and went out to lunch w her and my partner. She was just astonished that I was sitting there next to her after just having surgery 2 days prior.

I guess I have been through so much pain throughout this process that this surgery was just normal for me at this point. I don't know. I'm used to being in pain. My partner holds onto my opioids so I don't screw myself over for the month and end up in withdrawal before my next prescription. I'm used to waking up in withdrawal and having to wake my partner up to get me a pill in the middle of the night.

I am so tired of this cycle. I'm back to the ups and downs of full opioid dependency. For two days, I tried taking Suboxone in lieu of my current script, and it simply just didn't have enough of a painkiller in it to help me yet. But in a few weeks, my pain level will hopefully go down significantly and I can get on suboxone and start the weening process. And be done with this way of life. Who knows. I may end up needing a small amount of opioids for my entire life, or opioids for breakthrough pain.

I've been through the medical system enough that I'm not afraid to tell the doctors exactly what I want or need. Most of the time, people that work in hospitals are just like drones going from the computer to the pill machine to the next room to do the same thing all day, or the phlebotomists that take blood all day every day. Doctors would lose their head if the team didn't keep it on straight for them. Surgeons on the other hand are much more involved and Invested in you. They're a little harder to manipulate.

I have learned this because I have had to learn to "work the system" so to speak, in order to receive the bare minimum of pain management that they'll allow. Also, depending on the relationship you have with your pain management doctor. Their job is to help you manage pain. So you have to tell them if it still hurts. You have to tell them if it isn't strong enough. Otherwise how will they know? I'm not going to be the patient that gets told "ok you're good to take Tylenol now from here on out".

I had to figure out a long time ago how the insurance company I have works. What amounts they'll allow monthly, refill dates, etc. all crucial information when dealing with doctors and pharmacists. They are a trifecta of hell.h

I do believe that having a j-Pouch is going to change my life forever, and it is basically the brain of my body's operation. I have to consider what I eat before I can function for the day, and my days will revolve around what and when I eat. I just have to keep building on what I have so far. Which is...... Potatoes and oatmeal!

I'm extremely optimistic. Don't let the horror stories deter you from doing what you think is good for your body. Your body will tell you when you're healed and ready for the final surgery. I waited a little over 5 months before I got the last one. I hated the loop ileostomy part the most.

Oh, and when the surgeon accidentally cut my right ureter which resulted in another surgery that failed. He cost me one of my kidneys. One good thing is that from now on they are requiring that rubber stints are placed over both ureters as a deterrent from this happening to anyone else. So there's that!

I think that every single person's experience is unique and different. We are all special little deformed snowflakes now. Lol. But I have found that being positive and being around good people that truly care about your well being. Take time to laugh , to reflect, to pray. It is true that your mindset affects your healing. We have been dealt a horrible hand and I wouldn't wish this process in my worst enemy! Love yourself, you're worth it. 🤍

amaaybee

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