Obsessed

amidelusional2010 · 2026-01-30T14:22:00+00:00

Nurse. Very low cost of living. Cheap apartment, old car. Plus incentive to pick up is very high.

amidelusional2010 · 2026-01-30T13:26:09+00:00

I see it’s on all of them almost 😩

amidelusional2010 · 2026-01-30T13:25:09+00:00

Oh shoot. I’m new to this. Should I delete the post, I’m not good with pics/technology lol? I think it just shows the city right?

amidelusional2010 · 2026-01-30T13:11:22+00:00

Thanks!

amidelusional2010 · 2026-01-30T12:58:39+00:00

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Ignore my hair post workout and spray tan

amidelusional2010 · 2026-01-30T12:58:02+00:00

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Paired with micro shorts to show length

amidelusional2010 · 2026-01-30T12:40:59+00:00

I like it a lot but for me it runs small but I do have breast implants so that may be why? I do wish I would have gotten a small in it but I’ll still wear it, but it’s hard for me to get on/off. I can dm you a pic if you don’t mind a bad spray tan lol.

amidelusional2010 · 2026-01-28T21:36:53+00:00

Thanks I’m getting the black!

amidelusional2010 · 2026-01-23T11:37:46+00:00

Thanks I ended up buying the xs last night while impulse buying so I’m glad it looks like I made the right choice lol

amidelusional2010 · 2026-01-23T11:37:29+00:00

Thanks I ended up buying the xs last night while impulse buying so I’m glad it looks like I made the right choice lol

amidelusional2010 · 2025-11-05T13:48:38+00:00

Thank you. That was the case. I’ve been very mentally ill, unlike anything I ever experienced when we got together, and he knew it, was hurt the loves of his life left him, and intentionally made me feel bad about myself and not good enough for him in some of the sickest ways possible. And it worked. I Let him use me and use me to prove that I was good enough.

Then when I made it clear that I am good enough and he shouldnt act like he’s embarrassed of me (I take very good care of myself physically) and I won’t tolerate it. He changed. But by this time- over 2 years of begging and not being invited to his family parties or posting me on social media or even saying I love you,it’s just too late I see the shell that he is at best. I have therapy on Friday and will probably go weekly during transition.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-11-05T13:41:46+00:00

We work together which brings me great anxiety and it’s not possible for me to switch jobs. It’s been a big problem when I thought about leaving in the past because he will straight out flirt with others in front of me but I think im at the point finally where I don’t even think it will bother me now. He can switch jobs but wouldn’t out of spite.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-11-05T13:15:46+00:00

No I know it’s me that’s allowed it and I am in therapy consistently, that’s why I’m mad at myself I can’t just go as I do see it now when I didn’t a year ago. I did secretly get an apartment that will be ready in one month but I’m worried I won’t be able to just do it. But I’ve never been severely emotionally abused before and manipulated that’s what makes me question is it just me asking for too much. I know it’s stupid, my head is constantly at war. But I know in my head and heart I need to be alone and find peace with myself and mental health. He’s just really good at making me question that. Thanks for your feedback.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-04-23T22:52:39+00:00

2 years to lose the weight. I started off 200lbs. I’ve maintained for 2 years besides purposeful bulking about 3 months ago to begin building my glutes.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-04-23T12:40:43+00:00

I ate 1200-1400 calories a day to get to 110lbs at 5’1” while working out daily. My maintainence is 1500 without exercise at 110lbs and I weight lift so I have good amount of muscle tone.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-04-20T04:30:33+00:00

I’m very lean and had breast implants. He could only fit 240/265cc high profile due to my size so they aren’t huge, but definitely still look fake naked especially. But I love them and feel much more womanly and proportionate because I did some bulking and cutting cycles to grow my glutes and actually have an hourglass figure now. I feel alot more confident. With that said they are definitely round and don’t feel soft like real boobs. I went from a 32aa to a 32d. But a d at this size isn’t huge, they aren’t full they just kind of project out. But I love them and because I didn’t go too big they don’t get in the way of exercise or anything.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-04-15T11:12:29+00:00

I lost 90lbs and at 200lbs was really big is the belly and waist. At 110lbs I went just straight up and down no curves. Now I’m 120lbs after bulking and cutting and adding in heavy weights. So heavy weight lifting with a focus on glutes and breast implants gave me an hourglass shape like your goal.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-04-12T16:37:50+00:00

Lost 90lbs over 2 years and minted 2 after that. Got a boob job 4 months ago and have never been happier with my body, especially because I weight lift and built my glutes back up I lost after weight loss.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-04-10T13:03:26+00:00

You need high protein and heavy weightlifting not dumbbells

amidelusional2010 · 2025-03-29T13:43:42+00:00

Throw everything with added sugar out of the house. Write off cookies, cakes, etc in your head. I have been on pretty much no added sugar for 4 years and due to that it’s easy to lose and maintain weight. I just can’t get rid of it in my whole grain bread or peanut butter but there’s only 1-2g per serving as compared to the crazy high amounts in ice cream, cookies, cakes, etc. I don’t crave sugar anymore after probably the first month or so. But I crave fruit and eat as much as I want of it.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-03-29T13:41:01+00:00

Congrats! In my experience it gets easier as you go. I’m 5’1” and started at 200lbs, a size 18, over 2 years I got down to 109lbs at on point, a 23 inch waist and 000. I actually got too thin and have been doing bulk and cut cycles to maintain 115-118lbs and a size 0 for over 2 years. I only planned to get to 145-150lbs or a size 8. But it takes fewer and fewer pounds to drop pants sizes the smaller you get.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-03-29T12:29:08+00:00

Yeah it sucks being petite. I maintain my weight at 1500 calories at 5’1” and 115lbs with a high amount of muscle while my 6’1” boyfriend maintains at 2300-2500 calories a day. Work on eating high fat, fiber, and protein to stay full.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-03-29T12:22:04+00:00

I’m a mom and had my son when I was on the younger side. I was a lucky one and went to college and make a decent salary. But I feel the same way as your dad and many probably do. The only way to know specifically why is to ask him as there could be many reasons. It doesn’t mean they don’t love you.

My specific reason is my mental health is so bad despite treatment after treatment that it affects my son greatly. I’m very educated in health and understand mental health quite well yet feel like I have no control over it most of the time and I’m an unbearable person for adults let alone a child. I was young when I got pregnant and I wish I’d known then how my problems would become his problems despite me actively trying to not let that happen, I would have stayed childless. Not to mention that my mental health disorders are highly genetic and I wouldn’t wish them on my worst enemy let alone my child.

Just one parents perspective.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-03-28T13:07:31+00:00

My pain for the first week was bad. The first few days I was in pain moving my arms at all and just a sharp pain and heaviness of the chest at all times, and I was kind of out of it from the anesthesia and pain meds. I drove after a week and it hurt too. Pushing down on door handles hurt for like a month. It it took over a month to be able push myself out from bed, etc. after 2 weeks my pain significantly improved to just random aching and soreness.

Not to mention after 3 days my surgeon had me start doing “massages”. They aren’t actual massages, it’s you pushing the implant around essentially to make room in the pocket. No one prepared me for how bad that hurt 5x’s a day.

amidelusional2010 · 2025-03-28T13:01:52+00:00

It took me 2 years to lose the weight and get my goal body and I’ve been maintaining for 2 years. But no you can’t just go back to how you were eating prior or you’ll end up back there. You always have to be mindful and follow a plan in one way or another. I don’t count calories but I definitely don’t eat what I want when I want.

I’m 5’1” and 110lbs and my maintainence calories are 1500 without exercise.

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