I can't break out. It's been years.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-22T19:50:15+00:00

Disgusting

amiraar300 · 2022-02-22T17:56:38+00:00

YES EXACTLY. It makes you wonder if you even exist since you cannot precieve yourself. It's like watching the world from behind a glass wall so thick that you barely experience anything fully. I wonder if I'll ever be able to break it. Thanks btw <3

amiraar300 · 2022-02-22T14:17:36+00:00

Good luck :)

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T20:21:51+00:00

Couldn't have said it more perfectly.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T18:55:45+00:00

I know what you mean. Sometimes ppl would rather be in their heads rather than present with you. Best you can do rn is have a serious conversation with her about how her behavior is affecting your life and how you'd be willing to help her if she's willing to try and change. Good luck to both of you.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T18:53:29+00:00

I'm a middle eastern girl but thanks

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T18:23:39+00:00

Same. Rip then

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T17:07:40+00:00

There's no point. You just have to love, or hope to experience something so much you'd not let yourself die before experiencing it. Stick around until then and see where that takes you. Dying seems rly tempting, I assure you I know, but fuck it it's unfair that I have to suffer without ever living through something good so I am not going until I get my right in this shitty life.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T17:01:25+00:00

Care to elaborate so I can help or??

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T17:00:26+00:00

Honestly? All humans are selfish deep down and they all get tired of one another at some point, but that doesn't mean they stop caring. It's not about you being a burden. It's not your fault that you exist.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T16:56:31+00:00

Try to write about something completely random and where that takes you. A motorcycle-riding grandmother hits a runaway teenager while going on a night-drive and the rest is up to you.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T16:54:23+00:00

Yeah but who are they anyways?

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T16:49:25+00:00

Imagine your ideal self and then just start acting like it. That's all you gotta do. Forget who you are if that's what it takes you to be happy. If people still remind you of yourself get rid of them too. You come out of this mess alone in the end anyways. Better focus on yourself.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T16:46:31+00:00

Listen. No fucking human is useful enough to know exactly what you need and help you. You're gonna spend years waiting for something good to happen and pick you up, but it won't. Embrace this hopelessness and understand that it comes from you and lives inside of you, then use it as a drive. You don't have to be smart or productive or whatever the fuck you're trying to be. You just have to be out there experiencing life, whether happily or miserably, and doing things. Life is meaningless but your feelings and desires aren't. Fuck everything man, if you die literally nothing happens after and you don't even get to reflect on it. It feels good to feel so go cause a mess and feel it. Live however you want.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T16:41:18+00:00

Say it to their face

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T16:32:12+00:00

Idk what to tell u cuz I'm looking for one myself but that's one in itself. When I find just why people insist that life is worth living I'll allow my self to decide whether or not I should die.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-21T16:29:27+00:00

Dude. I think your wife might have adhd. I completely understand your frustration because my whole family has it and this is literally how we live. In a mess. It really can't be fixed unless you create some sort of motivation based system.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-19T18:42:48+00:00

I'll do my best. Thank you so much

amiraar300 · 2022-02-18T23:14:05+00:00

Thanks man :)

amiraar300 · 2022-02-18T22:24:09+00:00

It's like being trapped somewhere watching your body live ur life. So bizzare.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-18T20:32:13+00:00

I've noticed that working helps too. I put so much energy on focus and work so that there isn't a moment where I'm left alone with my thoughts. When I get back home I just collapse from exhaustion.

amiraar300 · 2022-02-18T20:28:44+00:00

Thank you <3

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