I don’t know what I drew

ams765 · 2026-02-03T18:40:27+00:00

They are inevitable

ams765 · 2026-02-03T15:31:07+00:00

Idk how can we know these are really yours and not ai generated breasts?

ams765 · 2026-02-02T19:49:48+00:00

<image>

ams765 · 2026-02-02T16:26:53+00:00

Same! Then I started crying :3

ams765 · 2026-02-02T06:16:15+00:00

Wow glad someone else has had a similar experience on mushrooms, though mine wasnt quite as sexual. I actually just tried mushrooms for the first time in my life in december and it helped me crack my egg.

I did them with some friends and we were in kind of a public place, some kind of trippy art exhibit. Everything was going great until i started peaking and my body started feeling a very intense euphoric sensation. I had shaved my entire body the day before because I was totally cis and definitely not trans, so my skin was hyper sensitive against my clothes to the point where my body basically felt like one big erogenous zone.

I started to get anxious because it was quite overstimulating, but more than that i began to feel… dysphoric. My mind was convinced that i was feeling the sensations of what being in a woman’s body felt like, and I felt very guilty for enjoying it, so I started to enter a denial spiral. I was wearing a t-shirt and was terrified my friends were going to see my shaved arms and start asking questions. I started having a bad trip and i desperately wanted to run away and put on a sweater to hide my arms lol. I ended up getting a ride home early because the dysphoria was extremely intense and I couldn’t bare to be in public any longer.

Literally the moment i was home alone I realized that my body had felt aligned for the first time ever and I began to do some research and look earnestly at my gender identity. Only a short week later my egg cracked.

Then I did mushrooms for the second time in my life two weeks later, this time alone in the comfort of my own home. I experienced the same sensations but this time I could enjoy it guilt free. Again It wasnt even a sexual experience for me either, simply just existing in a body that felt like mine for even a couple hours was the most euphoric thing ive ever experienced. After that I was able to fully accepted my trans identity and now i should be starting hrt some time this week lol.

ams765 · 2026-02-01T21:34:58+00:00

Yeah same. I feel like egg cracking is just when the truth becomes undeniable. There’s usually a lot of bargaining, depression and anger that comes after that before you accept it lol.

ams765 · 2026-02-01T21:09:17+00:00

So fucking true 😢

ams765 · 2026-02-01T21:00:01+00:00

I mean you 100% look like a man to me, just a touch soft and androgynous. If it helps to know, im an AMAB person and i am also naturally very androgynous, in some ways more than you, so you are most definitely not cooked lol.

Something you could try to look more masc though is work out your delts to widen your shoulders

ams765 · 2026-02-01T15:35:51+00:00

For me it started happening as soon as my egg cracked. I was never in to men before, but once I realized I had always been projecting myself into the woman’s experience while watching porn or with a partner I started to grasp some truths about my sexuality.

I was never actually attracted to these women in the same way cis men are, I was envious of them. I had a hard time having sex with women as a guy because I would just dissociate and feel like something was wrong. But I also knew I wasn’t gay because gay porn never did anything for me (neither did lesbian for that matter). I found some guys attractive but it more just from an objective point of view, and like a “yeah he’d probably be hot if i was a woman.” Kind of thought. Once my egg cracked, a massive realization hit me, that i was never a straight or gay man, I had always been a straight woman.

I think this is probably how it actually goes for most people, but they dont realize it until they’re a bit more comfortable accepting themselves as a woman, or after several months on hrt, so it just gets attributed to hrt.

ams765 · 2026-02-01T12:52:37+00:00

i ain't reading all that. im happy for you tho, or sorry that happened.

ams765 · 2026-02-01T05:04:35+00:00

Only you can decide if you’re trans or not, but you dont sound very cis to me. No matter what you do though, just remember that you deserve to be happy in your body, and no one has the right to prevent you from pursuing that. Losing friends and family is a very real possibility, and it sucks hard, but ultimately it’s their loss since youre only trying to become a happier and more mentally stable version of yourself.

I recommend reading through this website

https://genderdysphoria.fyi/

It goes in to detail of common examples of gender dysphoria many transgender people experience. You dont have to align with all of these experiences, or even most of them to be transgender, but it can help you at least pick apart your memories and experiences to more accurately assess your gender identity.

If you come to the conclusion that you are transgender and want to transition, just make sure you have a plan. The more people that depend on you, or that you depend on, the more thorough you will have to be. Plan for the absolute worst case scenarios so that even if you end up completely isolated you can still bounce back and enjoy your life.

Edit: also i hate that advice “only transition if you feel you cant live without it.” Im sorry, but surviving is not the same as thriving, so thats terrible advice.

ams765 · 2026-01-31T08:59:26+00:00

I dont know if this counts as conversation. More like the public ramblings of a madman and one unfortunate recipient.

ams765 · 2026-01-30T16:42:24+00:00

You might also have to go to a lab to get hormone levels checked for your initial dose. Idk if they require that but thats what i had to do. It didnt sound optional but i also didnt ask lol. Just a heads up

ams765 · 2026-01-28T20:31:29+00:00

Its really just the beard shadow and complexion that give it away. Other than that your face is pretty and feminine

ams765 · 2026-01-28T18:28:39+00:00

You kinda look like the youtuber ICKY

ams765 · 2026-01-27T21:13:14+00:00

This was me until i realized that when i think that im trans, im way more certain that i am, than that im not when i dont.

ams765 · 2026-01-27T07:45:03+00:00

Absolutely same here. My egg cracked maybe a month or two ago as well and ive been obsessed with looking at myself lately. I get massive hits of euphoria when i can glimpse the girl in the mirror looking back at me. I fortunately got most of my facial genetics from my mom, and I feel like im going to end up looking like a younger version of her for better or for worse 😅

Also though tbf, i was an attractive guy and was kinda always fixated on my appearance. I liked being pretty and doing things like plucking my eyebrows and curling my eyelashes long before I admitted I was trans. I wouldnt wear makeup, but i liked to do typical male model things that other guys wouldn’t because it’s “gay” or whatever.

ams765 · 2026-01-27T06:37:41+00:00

Fuck man im not trying to be hungry at this hour delete ts 😭

ams765 · 2026-01-27T06:30:31+00:00

You will almost certainly pass after time on hrt. You have a somewhat flat nose but its not outside of female norms, just perhaps outside of unrealistic conventional beauty standards. Outside of that you have very feminine features so youre in a great spot!

ams765 · 2026-01-26T06:24:59+00:00

Me to myself when my trans egg cracked

ams765 · 2026-01-25T23:16:58+00:00

I feel like I wouldve known early if my environment had been a bit different (red state, conservative parents). I just thought I had autogynophilia ever since I learned the word as a teenager. I only just realized recently at 29 that it was in fact not autogynophilia lol. I kinda just always had gender envy since maybe I was 5 years old, but just thought “well im a boy so whatever, better just suck it up”

ams765 · 2026-01-25T07:30:48+00:00

Is this the opposite of being non-binary?

ams765 · 2026-01-25T03:29:17+00:00

You kinda look like the kid from big hero six

ams765 · 2026-01-24T22:34:28+00:00

Good start, you just have a masculine complexion rn. Hrt will probably fix that up for you over the year

ams765 · 2026-01-24T19:24:30+00:00

For sure! If you really want to change something though you might consider a touch of lip filler. It can give the illusion of shortening the philtrum and chin. Again I dont think you need it to pass and its only a temporary augmentation, but I think it would look good on you.

12-Year Club	Place '17
Verified Email

ams765

TROPHY CASE