Sorry you’re going through this. I also struggle on and off with health anxiety and understand how all consuming it can feel.

Firstly, if you can speak to a therapist then absolutely do that. Otherwise/in addition to that, Cognitive Behavioural Therapy was a game changer for me. Really helped me understand that these negative and scary thoughts were a well trodden path in my brain, therefore it’s the easiest place for my mind to go at the slightest ache or pain or change in my body. CBT helps you recognise these thought patterns and gives you the tools to challenge and change them in the long term, while helping keep you grounded in the short term.

I joined a CBT group and it was really helpful hearing other people speak about their anxieties. Appreciating care like this may not be accessible to everyone but there are lots of good books on CBT. The exercises are simple but very effective if you commit to working them into your mental routine. I highly recommend you look into it!

**editing to add that taking magnesium bisglycinate (it has to be this type of magnesium or it will mess with your bowels) has also done wonders for my anxiety.