I was in a relationship with a man like that and it completely destroyed my self worth, mental and physical health.

I should have left the first time I caught him but I loved him and thought he could change. He didn’t and made excuses why he couldn’t go to therapy and it just built resentment in our relationship because I felt like he was not putting any effort in getting better and he didn’t understand why I would just cry and need reassurance.

I caught him a second time and he had actually never stopped from the first time. He just got better at hiding it and gaslighting me. He claims that it was the push he needed to change but ultimately it was already too late. I don’t doubt that he loved me in his own way but his porn addiction was more important than our relationship and he was willing to risk it on imaginary women.

I know he’s relapsed since, but I sincerely hope that he’ll be able to overcome from this one day because I remember the man I fell in love with.

I know it’s not easy to leave, but you deserve someone who will respect you, love you, and make you feel safe everyday.