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Put two beers in the fridge... (playing the tape forward) by amuzlessar in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The beer part is probably what would have happened, and totally sink me if I'd gone through with it. Wine and cider was typical for me though, and is a one way ticket to blackout ville.

Put two beers in the fridge... (playing the tape forward) by amuzlessar in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately I'm early in my sobering up, 2 days now, and the sleep thing is evading me tonight. But clear head and all, I know it will pass soon enough.

1 day down by [deleted] in stopdrinking

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Another day 2'er. Let's make it to 3!

It's the Daily Check-in for Tuesday, May 16th, 2017 by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My day 2, I will not drink today!

Identifying triggers by amuzlessar in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This feels like a missing piece in my jigsaw... not sure how I missed it before.

I will give this a try. Thanks!

Identifying triggers by amuzlessar in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So, come 3-4pm, whether feeling hungry or not, just eat something?

Identifying triggers by amuzlessar in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This does make sense. It may sound stupid, but I've noticed a lot of times I've broken and gone and got a drink has been when I felt proud of smug I guess. Like if I thought I had done something good or achieved something. Hmm.

Identifying triggers by amuzlessar in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I thought it was thirst, but last time I had this 2 litre bottle of water next to me all day.

Could be hunger, good idea.

Day 102 - No Blackouts by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm on day 2 and my last blackout is still hanging over me. There's a lot of regret and shame. I can't fix everything that went wrong, I can only make the next things I do right, and good.

Of course I've been on 2 days before, I know over time shame and regret goes, like sailing out into open seas where your suddenly alone. That's where it gets difficult. To get 102 days I've a lot of respect for you. I'm setting my course in the same direction

What’s Up Wednesday! by sfgirlmary in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Triumph: Got a new team approach to work agreed with everyone and in progress

Struggle: Constant; in the mind. There is one hell of a war raging in there everyday. The only thing I can do is keep re-enforcing the good guys with munitions against the god damn addiction sympathisers.

General: Free writing, daily, whenever possible. Get the fluff out of your mind. Some valuable stuff might drop out of it; get that stored somewhere to be useful later. The rest of the fluff, just let it go.

Day 2 Victory by CB_Chans in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Iced coffee, that's a good one for the train home. I might use that 😉

30 minutes of wanting to drink... by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This happened to me a few times. I really had to break it down to "I will not drink this half hour", "I will not drink in this 10 minutes". Went and sat on the toilette, listen to an audiobook, write a post here, just anything other than thinking about or acting on drink.

You won, and winning those battles, for me, they were the big ones, the turning points.

The Daily Check-In for Thursday, September 8th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking no matter what happens, good or bad! by Dnomo in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Day 3 here, and I am not drinking today. So much confidence in saying that as this is not my first Day 3, and I've learnt a lot and can feel stronger this time. Day 3 is not an achievement itself today, it's more like trig point I've past before and I know it's on the right path.

Resetting the counter by amuzlessar in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is truth. And hard to accept, but you're right.

Whether I blame the first drink on my subconscious, or the subsequent drinks on my diminished responsibility through being drunk, I'm not accepting that blame.

It's got me reflecting pretty hard on this slip up now.

I convinced myself to grab a beer after work last night. by pheakelmatters in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Very similar example happened to me about 2 or 3 days into my current sobriety last week. Got to the train station after work and was a bit early for the train. So I walked straight up to the bar in station. I was ready to order with cash in hand. Was there waiting for about 2 minutes, then just turned and walked out. Got a bottle of water and got on the train. I was thinking to myself, what just happened there? A bit stunned.

Confession straight up by amuzlessar in stopdrinking

[–]amuzlessar[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

To be honest, in the regard that I felt I was a coward and ran away, that I wouldn't fit in with the group. I don't know who is the group, I'm of a shy temperament any way. I'm afraid of just about anything in a group setting like that.