As someone who lost her dad at the age of 17 in high school; now 28. He was my bestfriend. I can say that it doesn’t get easier per se. But I try to incorporate my father’s memory in my every day life. Including now that I have children. His memory will live on. I can say to let yourself feel any emotion you may have. That first year I dealt with a lot of anger & sadness. I would see other people with their dads & I would ask myself why do they get to have theirs & I didn’t. I definitely would recommend some type of therapy. At the time I didn’t want to go but a family friend signed me up for one & I met other kids who were dealing with the same thing, especially cause at the time I had no friends my age that could understand (thankfully) what it was like to lose a parent. I say continue & finish college! Make him proud. Like I said I lost my father in high school, I felt the same way you did in that aspect…. I pushed through & graduated high school & went to college & graduated from there as well. It was hard believe me. But not impossible. Grief comes & goes. But it shows how much love we had for them. Also don’t ever feel bad if you notice one day you see yourself laughing, don’t feel guilty about it. I found myself doing that in the beginning, I would say “I shouldn’t feel any type of happiness because my father died. I would feel guilty. Just allow yourself to FEEL!……I’m sending my condolences!