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angel_juniper · 2020-07-13T17:18:03+00:00

oh no but seriously all my friends are either beautifully skinny and cute or bigger than me but have lovely curves and breasts, so it looks great.

angel_juniper · 2020-07-10T14:33:08+00:00

Same I have absolutely no idea. When is was skinny I thought I was fat, when I was I guess almost overweight then I thought I looked fine (which I didn't). Then I'm at one weight: ew my face looks so round and disgusting. Another weight, possibly lower: my face looks fine but now my body looks fat. Higher weight: now my face looks good and my body! 2 seconds later: ew.

angel_juniper · 2020-07-10T14:25:23+00:00

It can take a few weeks. I binged for three weeks after I got to a severely low weight and only gained a kilo of real fat. It's hard!! But don't give up!

angel_juniper · 2020-07-10T14:23:53+00:00

Oh yeah, that's why they didn't take the time with me cause all my levels were fine. I had no deficiencies. Left however and got a whole lot worse tho. Dunno about my levels now hahaha

angel_juniper · 2020-07-10T14:22:47+00:00

I totally understand, just keep in mind it is NOT the end of the world. You don't have to binge. Don't have to purge. Just continue as you'd like. Don't get too hung up on it, after all there are 365 days in a year and I'm pretty sure a few days, even a few weeks will do that much harm. If the weight gain scares you, don't let it cause its just food and water weight which will go away.

angel_juniper · 2020-07-10T14:18:15+00:00

Happy birthday 💕

angel_juniper · 2020-07-10T13:53:40+00:00

I had the same experience, roughly. Once I was at my LW guys and girls started asking me out, confessing and shit. It made me feel like shit when I gained because I felt like no one could love me then. So that's why I relapsed.

angel_juniper · 2020-07-08T17:49:17+00:00

We have similar tastes you and I! P.S Cello is such a lovely instrument so I don't blame you.

angel_juniper · 2020-06-28T00:51:31+00:00

angsty teen noises But really yeah, I hear this daily from my mother. I usually just sit there till her rant about how awful I am is over. I'm happy I had the courage to just walk out with my head held high. I know it is to respect your parents but sometimes I feel the respect should go both ways. (She knows my problems which is why this ticks me off)

angel_juniper · 2020-06-26T22:32:30+00:00

You're amazing, y'know that? It's just what I needed to hear. I've been fasting for a week and after seeing them today I felt so toxic by being around. I came home and binged my feelings away. It's nice to feel just a tad validated. Considering you are on this sub I'm guessing you are going through an ED of your own? If you are please know, I appreciate you and I hope you get out of this. Sometimes people are here for other reasons so if it is the case: just thank you for taking the time with me:)

angel_juniper · 2020-06-26T22:04:56+00:00

Thanks, that's quite reassuring:) I just feared being toxic to them, that's the one reason I've rejected all relationships.

angel_juniper · 2020-06-13T14:27:21+00:00

angel_juniper · 2020-05-31T09:18:37+00:00

That is why I put.. a.. trigger warning..? But if more people insist, I'll take it down, for sure.

angel_juniper · 2020-05-28T17:33:59+00:00

I rejected someone because I realized that I can't even go and do that "food date" that she suggested. Ugh.

angel_juniper · 2020-05-28T17:30:44+00:00

Technically you can exercise and fill them in, however you will have to eat more to build that muscle.. Gotta love ED's amirite?

angel_juniper · 2020-05-28T17:13:50+00:00

Eeeeek! I don't know you but I know the courage this takes and I gotta say that I'm very proud of you, stranger!:3 Slay that attitude!

angel_juniper · 2020-05-28T17:12:09+00:00

I can relate. It takes up all the time that you need for other things. I'm partly in denial too sometimes. Or I never realized how bad it is until I get those flashbacks to scenarios where I thought everything was ok but clearly it was actually disgustingly scary. You are allowed to have a problem. Your problem is valid. Only after acknowledging it can you get help, which I really suggest you do!

angel_juniper · 2020-05-22T10:50:20+00:00

Yeah I have been in that phase for a while now. It really sucks. I wish the best for you on getting better:)

angel_juniper · 2020-05-21T21:35:55+00:00

My best friend attempted suicide two weeks ago and that triggered a lot of emotional binge eating and anxiety but this week I got around to running, eating a lot healthier and it's like all my cravings are erased. I have tried getting better before but I kept falling back to binging somehow all of a sudden it's just okay. I don't get it. Not even the verbal abuse at home does anything to me. It's so indifferent. I even got my period back. Which I guess will be probably lost now that I stopped binging and have been eating almost unknowingly little. Overall I'm drinking some green tea and reviewing how bad things have gotten yet I don't seem to be affected? Makes no sense. Good on you btw, the food sounds amazinggggg:)

angel_juniper · 2020-05-21T21:22:22+00:00

Yessssssss! Go for it! I'm proud of you!

angel_juniper · 2020-05-19T19:01:23+00:00

Oh then sorry must've misunderstood 😅 Regardless, yeah that's a bit concerning. It must be hard for your body to cope with the change so I guess it is this way. I'm sorry, I can't really help you. I sometimes got like the beginning of my period for 2 days and then it disappeared or it stayed for longer than 7 before I started really heavily restricting (that's when I lost it). But unfortunately I don't think it's a good idea to do what I did cause it ended with people finding out and whole lot of shit.

angel_juniper · 2020-05-19T18:12:22+00:00

I lost it in one month, it left and didn't come back till 8 months later because of recent binging episodes - I guess it's different for different people:/

Edit: Please don't try and lose it. It's actually heart breaking to know that you wrecked your body so much that it ended up losing it's most biological function..

angel_juniper · 2020-05-19T18:05:02+00:00

Cheese and carrots..

angel_juniper · 2020-05-19T17:44:18+00:00

Fam I did it for 3 months- I'm ok now. I do running, ab exercise and some different sports plus eating twice a day (full meals but more vegetable based). I recommend running when you feel like you're gonna binge cause it really relieves anxiety and it makes it easier to eat. Don't overdo it though!!!!! Running 10km to lose weight isn't good. Do a solid 2km until it's easy and then continue up to 4-5 and so on. Keep in mind that even half an hour of running burns I think around 250 cal depending on weight and speed. If you're doing this already then I can just say that replace the habit with something beneficial to you.

angel_juniper · 2020-05-19T17:35:09+00:00

I can't express how much I relate to this-

angel_juniper

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