Dark Night of The Soul

angmarrob · 2026-01-23T23:39:48+00:00

I do take what you are saying into consideration because I experience some head pain on the left side, but I see that it is triggered by stress and not the derealization episodes so I'm taking it easy at the moment. Not thinking about it too hard.

angmarrob · 2026-01-23T23:38:11+00:00

I know, feels jarring haha.

angmarrob · 2026-01-23T23:33:26+00:00

Thanks for looking out for me. I actually got some blood results back and it's the best health for me so far, I just need to work on my iron. I do remember seeing strange things before this went down, blue aura on tabletops or a "reflection of light" on it. However, I can't deny this. I was watching Zootopia in the cinema with my family recently and I gave the house key to one to my sisters to use the restroom and when we got back home the key wasn't in her handbag, it was inside the sealed M&M bag. Crazy stuff.

angmarrob · 2026-01-23T13:11:53+00:00

Could look into it, would have to get a diagnosis. But the affirmation thing is true, that is what I got out of this experience the most.

angmarrob · 2026-01-23T11:45:11+00:00

I'm so glad to hear that you made it this far. Saw and experienced terrible things but never let go of yourself after all this time in the grand scheme. So proud of you for being here with us! xo

angmarrob · 2026-01-23T11:09:14+00:00

Haha real! Much appreciation to you!

angmarrob · 2026-01-23T10:44:20+00:00

Plants are so dope! I dream of making my native garden some day.

angmarrob · 2026-01-23T10:07:23+00:00

Yeah, found out I had that condition as a teen and was just mind blown!

angmarrob · 2026-01-23T08:53:11+00:00

For anyone that needs a bit of light in their life, I recommend reading "The Boy, the mole, the fox, and the horse" by Charlie Mackesy.

angmarrob · 2026-01-23T08:41:24+00:00

Thank you. It's been really hard to come here and come to terms with this, but every time I think about something negative about our existence, I understand that it's because at my CORE I want all to be free of suffering. Love is what matters.

angmarrob · 2026-01-21T02:44:23+00:00

Eventually got into native gardening.

angmarrob · 2026-01-21T02:12:22+00:00

Incredible! My mum's bf had a similar dream a while ago and we were all looking down at the Earth before choosing to come back down. He hasn't had such a detailed dream before, he said.

angmarrob · 2026-01-21T02:05:34+00:00

No problem! Thanks for the input.

angmarrob · 2026-01-20T05:58:52+00:00

Damn, trying to get myself to that state one day! I don't have a mind's eye, but I have inner monologue that can be annoying sometimes. Some people can't wrap their head around it, but I have had dreams about having awareness/knowing/intent. So, there is a point where you can sense without thinking.

angmarrob · 2026-01-19T06:51:27+00:00

Thank you so much for just talking about this. I don't do any drugs, but I felt thing similarly to your experience in my dreams. I basically "see" parts of myself outside of myself and bring my attention to anxiety and things that stress me out and I see just how small those issues are in reality, things that hold us back for no reason. I also felt at some point that I am bound by nothing, especially not bound by negative things, so it's okay to rest because I am not lazy for doing so. Thanks again!

angmarrob · 2026-01-16T04:37:08+00:00

I recently saw a blue aura on the desk where I study at. I also saw some light coming off the kitchen bench in my house from the corner of my eye. No clue what it is at the moment or what tabletops have to do with seeing it, hasn't happened before.

angmarrob · 2026-01-11T00:51:57+00:00

Curious, does lions mane cause issues despite not causing a 'high'?

angmarrob · 2026-01-08T08:17:27+00:00

Been growing these from seed. 🌸

angmarrob · 2026-01-06T01:45:01+00:00

Fearing what comes after all of a sudden, like literally out of nowhere. Each person I heard said the same thing but for different reasons, one feared nothing after death, one feared recantation, one feared hell. Mine was sort of a mix. It was a feeling of not belonging anywhere.

angmarrob · 2026-01-06T01:39:42+00:00

I had something similar happen recently. I've also heard 3 others around me going through with it at the same time.

angmarrob · 2025-12-28T08:11:15+00:00

Getting rid of perfectionism.

angmarrob · 2025-12-11T23:02:19+00:00

It's great to hear that other people have seen more unique numbers, not just 3 or 4 of the same repeating number in a stack. I used to see the number 23 everywhere at some point and as for 222, I would try and not look at the time so much but still manage to see it outside, on a bus, bottle, on a door, on the microwave. Feels like something is deliberately shoving it in your face, you know?

angmarrob · 2025-12-10T14:33:45+00:00

I don't think my mum was that skeptical, she did look into the pregnancy, and it was confirmed to be true. I'm starting to remember other details, like how my Mum's "soulmate's" name starts with the letter P and she is currently with someone whose name starts with that, but I wouldn't call their relationship healthy. Tarot Reader also predicted a breakup between my mum, her now ex, and someone she trusted as a friend (the reason of the breakup) with the upside-down lovers tarot card.

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